Is this the legendary "it never rains but it pours"? Lying in a hospital bed n years ago, I cast a questioning look at life for the first time.
My cousin died of cancer at 36. When I heard the news, my mind was confused and impatient. Cousin is the kindest of their brothers. I don't understand, God is playing tricks on good people, and injustice and even resentment are harassing me. This emotion has been lingering for a long time.
On the way back to my hometown, I met a little boy riding a children's bike. He is about eight or nine years old. The child was hospitalized for a month, and the medical expenses alone cost nearly 100 thousand. Shortly after this happened, he fell ill and broke up with his girlfriend who had been in love for three years.
Outsiders don't say anything, but they are convinced that the so-called "double whammy" is doomed. My relatives and friends expressed their concern and sympathy for me. And kindly advise that it is better to go out less during this period of bad luck and ill-fated life. A kind friend invited me to a master who studied geomantic gossip and said that he would change my fortune-telling. Mr. Feng Shui observed our ancestral graves several times, and finally firmly decided that our ancestral graves were buried in the wrong place and hit something, which would bring such a series of troubles and misfortunes. When my parents heard this, they suddenly realized that it was so, so the whole family moved the ancestral grave upside down.
Grandpa strongly disagreed. He always thought that Mr. Feng Shui was invited to visit the ancestral grave, and vowed that this gentleman was ten times better than the one in front of him. If this land moves, my uncle who is an official will definitely lose his job. If he loses his job, the cronies he recommended will definitely lose their jobs, and so will the cronies he recommended. And my second cousin, who is doing well in business, will definitely go bankrupt and liquidate. If he goes bankrupt and liquidates, all the people who have invested in his career will also go bankrupt. My aunt will also go bankrupt according to the names and labels he got on various occasions, and all the glorious titles of my cousins will also go bankrupt. Grandpa said that the loss of moving the grave seems to be more serious than not moving, so everyone unanimously decided that they would rather sacrifice me.
Lying in bed waiting for death, I thought I was going to die, but then I suddenly found out that this was another serious joke.
Leisure time, a pot of old wine, two dishes of small dishes, reading all kinds of books. I have a strong interest in the "double whammy" that everyone fears and blindly believes. After all kinds of textual research and careful consideration, I finally thoroughly cracked the golden sentence of "The so-called blessing is not heavy, and the disaster will come again" in Liu Xiang's Shuo Wen Ma Yuan Ji in the Han Dynasty. So I soberly and calmly restored the truth of my series of disasters:
My cousin's early death broke my heart. In the case of extreme sadness and emotional breakdown, I drove blankly. A little boy is playing on the road. He is too young to know how to avoid it. At the moment, these are ignored by depressed me. Usually, I will slow down even a kitten and puppy to let it pass safely, but at that time, I ignored a fresh child until a desperate cry came. ...
So the spirit is more broken and the mood is more unstable. Apologize, sadness, anxiety, disappointment, despair ... some negative and miscellaneous emotions attacked me in a short time. I began to become irrational and lost my moral bottom line. Swearing, and sometimes even boxing, have come in handy and become a weapon of catharsis. My girlfriend saw that I was getting worse and worse, and I tried many times without success. After a big fight, she was very sad and left. ...
Excessive mood swings, struggles, and negative energy things are saturated in my body, and my body can't bear it. Just like a computer has a virus, negative energy, like a virus, crashes directly. I'm very ill, everyone says so. To what extent, even the doctor didn't find out why. Don't think about tea and rice, get thinner and thinner, abdominal distension, abdominal support, not eating, burping all day, and even intermittent auditory hallucinations. ...
Two months later, I walked out of the ward and greeted my relatives and friends calmly. They looked suspicious and wanted to know why I didn't die.
How could I die? I am still so young, how many wonderful things in my life are waiting for me to discover! What "it never rains but it pours"? This is complete nonsense. If you want to change your behavior, you must first move your heart. It's just that your heart is out of control The only solution: it's complicated, all kinds of poisons don't invade, and keep a calm mind. Let it never rains but it pours, stop here and disappear.