Once, we yearned for poetry, wine and distant places, but under the impact of trivial life, these beautiful pursuits have long changed.
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I had a dream in the middle of the night, dreaming that I was sleeping, covered with a pile of chicken feathers, and there were many dandruff on my body. Soft and comfortable, as if it had been several years.
I dreamed that the endless crowd surged forward and turned into teams of ants begging for rain.
When I woke up, it was already dawn. Xiao Lin shook his head and recalled the dream, which was already a blur.
This is the origin of Liu Zhenyun's novella A Chicken Feather, which describes trivial daily life very truly and aptly.
Many people read this novel and think that Kobayashi is who he is in real life. He is busy with trivial things all day, and he doesn't know what is left in life except a chicken feather.
I used to be young and ignorant, thinking that I was unique, taking dreams as horses, and longing for a distant life with poems and songs.
However, the reality is that every day, in order not to be late for work, for family life, I endure the scolding of my boss, the accusations of my customers, and some quarrels between husband and wife caused by family chores.
Every day, day after day, cycle. After a long time, I found that life is not as easy as I thought. I am just a member of ordinary life.
Later, I discovered that after years of baptism and life training, when there is no basic living guarantee, everything else is nonsense.
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As long as you are patient, can wait, not impatient, not abnormal, what others can get, you can finally get it.
There is nothing wrong with this sentence, and we often comfort ourselves like this. As long as you can get through the unpleasant life in front of you, everything that should come will come.
Xiao Lin thinks so too. The hard part is that the idea is good, but we have to put up with trivial things in our immediate life.
No, a catty of tofu from Xiaolin's family has turned sour.
At the beginning of the article, because a catty of tofu turned sour, it caused a quarrel between husband and wife, and then the old man who checked the water meter warned about stealing water, which began the prelude of life. In order to find a relationship and change jobs, he failed to give gifts.
Next, my hometown came to ask for help, but I was dissatisfied with my wife. The child's illness worried the couple, and the neighbor's help solved the problem of sending the child to kindergarten and quit the boring nanny.
Later, he joined the trend of buying cabbage, helped his classmates sell dried salted ducks, and gave up watching live football matches in order to pull honeycomb briquettes. ...
All kinds of trivial things in life are constantly, wave after wave. These things are not very big, just some small things that you need every day, but you have to deal with them.
Life is just rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea. We are always immersed in countless trivial matters and live in a huge gap.
Young couples who were eager to create the future together will quarrel and blame each other when they encounter trivial things in life.
Just like some young couples in daily life, they think of themselves who fell in love when they were students. They never think so much. They are enjoying their beautiful youth and talking freely about their ideal life in the future.
However, married life has taught them a lesson that all beautiful dreams are so vulnerable in the face of real life that needs food and clothing.
Life is not a soap opera. The prince and the princess will be together forever and live a happy life together.
What's more, most people are immersed in countless trivial matters and cannot extricate themselves.
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What ambition, what career ideal, nonsense, that was when I was young. Everyone just mixed up, didn't they live their whole lives?
What's wrong with being ambitious? Have a career ideal. Why? "Where will ancient and modern? A pile of grass is gone! " Who knows who will live forever!
At the time of graduation, Kobayashi was also a person with ideals and pursuits, and also had a strong sense of professionalism. He is very angry, hard-working, and has his own personality and opinions.
After several years of hardships in life, he, like the general public, was soon submerged in the dark and rigid crowd.
All kinds of small things in life, all kinds of worldly wisdom, let him fall into a deep contradiction: I don't know whether to stick to myself or follow the crowd?
When he saw that his living standard was far from others, when his wife's job was not settled, when he could not do anything for the teacher, and when his children could not find a suitable kindergarten, he hesitated.
Accustomed to the gap between people's living standards, accustomed to the truth that some people do things, accustomed to the changes in the world, he compromised.
He is used to reading books and newspapers before going to bed. He always gets up and takes notes.
Now, he tells himself: You just buy tofu, go to work, eat, sleep and wash clothes, and deal with nannies and children. At night, you don't want to turn the page.
At one time, he could ignore the director of the unit and the organs in society, large and small.
Now, he has become very tactful and says everything to everyone.
Once he was enthusiastic and helpful, and he was a good boy who knew how to be grateful.
Now, hearing the news of the death of the most beloved teacher, he also felt guilty for not helping the teacher last time, but he thought:
The dead man is dead, and it's no use thinking about it. The living might as well consider Chinese cabbage.
At one time, he sneered at some social atmosphere and dismissed it.
Now, for the sake of my wife's work, I have embarked on the road of giving gifts and trusting relationships. I know how to pretend to be reluctant when accepting other people's requests and acquiesce in the way of accepting gifts.
In the years of life tempering, Kobayashi got an inspiration: it seems that it is not impossible to change life, just join it.
Xiao Lin's wife, Xiao Li, was a quiet and delicate girl before she got married. At that time, she didn't talk much, and her clothes were not fashionable, but she was clean.
Who would have thought that such a quiet and poetic girl would become a housewife who loves nagging, doesn't comb her hair and steals water at night?
Arguing endlessly about a catty of rotten tofu, constantly complaining about keeping up with the competition from neighbors, reluctant to spend too much money on gifts for changing jobs, buying 500 jins of Chinese cabbage for reimbursement to the unit, and urging Xiaolin to accept gifts from others for business. ...
Kobayashi and his wife succumbed to life in this way, addicted to the rendering of the secular world, addicted to this secular world, and became egoists with their own interests in the majority.
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In fact, things in the world are very simple. As long as you understand a truth and follow it, life is like running water, and it is quite comfortable to go on day by day.
These are the heartfelt words of Kobayashi. According to the truth, what is the truth? Just go with the flow and follow the pace of the public. This is Xiao Lin's most comfortable lifestyle.
After waking up, Kobayashi's wife saw him silly there and urged him to buy tofu.
A new day, the same routine, buying tofu, going to work, eating, sleeping and washing clothes. ...
At the end of the article, Kobayashi thinks that if his wife can bake him some chicken in the microwave oven and let him drink a bottle of beer after cleaning up the Chinese cabbage, he will have nothing to be dissatisfied with.
Obviously, Xiao Lin has completely accepted this kind of life. He tried to change in the past but failed. Being out of tune with reality, he decided to adapt to this kind of life. Only in this way can he be foolproof.
Moravia said, "The most terrible thing in life is life."
Once a high-spirited teenager, after the baptism of life, he became a veteran of mixed society in a few years.
We feel sympathy for Xiao Lin, feel helpless for Xiao Lin, and feel sorry for ourselves at the same time, because each of us is Xiao Lin in our life, and it is difficult to guarantee that we will not fall into the secular world.
I think I am mature, sophisticated and smart. I used to be naive, but I finally saw through it and wanted to wear it, so I became the kind of person I hated most when I was a teenager.
Some things have to be done, and it is possible that this is the reality. Taking Kobayashi as a warning, you and I are greatly encouraged.