You are happy now, and you are superior in your career and life. However, in your subconscious, you can't let go of your origins and your past. Maybe you experienced some shadows when you were a child, maybe you were injured. You try to forget that memory, but you often inadvertently touch a nerve.
What you want to forget may be what you experienced personally, or what you inadvertently saw. In short, it is a haze that you cannot get rid of.
You're not golden phoenix flying out of the mountain, are you? Anyway, since history can't be erased, let's manage the present well.