Means:
Pay and return are not proportional! Even though I have been working hard, I will occasionally be found by my boss/teacher today and accused of being lazy! The tension between you and your elders is still going on. You should save yourself! At the same time, when you are faced with a decision-making occasion today, it is easy for you to hesitate. I suggest you recognize your position first, which is more convenient for things to go smoothly and more suitable for coordinated and auxiliary work/study.