Psychologically, you can say that.
First of all, you are worried about your grandfather's health and his death. There is such a worrying mood in my heart. It's probably related to something you've been exposed to recently or some movies or books you've seen.
Judging from the money grandpa gave you, you liked you very much when you were a child and will often give you money to spend. But the money I gave you was a long time ago. You miss the feeling that grandpa gave you money.
Then on the one hand, you are probably worried about your grandfather, afraid that your family or people around you will have a bad attitude towards your grandfather.
Another explanation is that you have a strong desire for money recently, and there are still opportunities. You want the help of your family, but the help of your family may not meet your current needs. Besides, although you don't have much money now, you are embarrassed to use your family's money.