I want to kill myself in my dreams. I also made a false statement!

Boys are not boys, but girls who have been having trouble with you in the dormitory recently.

There may be two reasons for this contradiction:

1, the other person despises your dream, and you have a dream of going on stage.

2. The other person looks down on your wealth and even laughs at your clothes. So you killed him and hid him in the closet.