Every family will have the arrival and departure of life.
It is normal to miss, but don't miss too much.
If you are still alive, you can't live up to what your father gave you when he was alive. He expects you, your growth and your success.
Just because your father died, you can't be paranoid and unacceptable.
Every life is hard-won, and leaving will definitely bring pain to relatives.
But you can't let pain surround you all the time. You have to live your own life.
Don't worry about your father in heaven.