However, after reading your dream, I have to explain it to you with psychology!
Black clothes are all transformed by your subconscious fear, and you exposed your weakness in front of fear!
Cuckoo was beaten for escorting you, but you ran away when you saw him being beaten (running is your subconscious choice), which shows that your character is selfish!
Therefore, in reality, you don't have many real friends, but more fair-weather friends, and you don't think these friends are friends at all, which makes you feel insecure subconsciously and unwilling to pay for your friends! So judge that you are lonely!
You do things for your own benefit. I suggest you treat people and things with a sincere heart!