"Brother, why are you so slow? Xiaojing and I are leaving first." Yiqiu filled the river with water from an empty Wahaha bottle and left with her little friend Xiaojing. She said this to her brother before leaving, but she never dreamed that this would be the last words she said to her brother. Yiqiu was five years old that year. She didn’t know what happened, let alone what death was. She only remembered that the lights were brightly lit at home and by the river in front of her door that night, and her grandma was sitting by the river holding her unmoving brother and crying. I cried loudly, and many relatives and neighbors gathered around me. One of my brother's shoes was still floating on the water of the creek. Yiqiu's childhood memories started from this moment, and she could not remember anything before the age of five, as if she had never experienced it before.
People in the small town are more superstitious and believe in ghosts and gods. After Yiqiu's brother left, her grandmother and father went to a fortune teller to calculate Feng Shui and fortune. After the calculation, Yiqiu read When her new house, which had just been built not long ago, fell to the ground, her father took her and her grandma on the train to a distant place. Yiqiu asked: "Grandma, why did our house fall down? We won't live there anymore, right?" Grandma said, "The fortune teller said that the door of our house is facing the Tutu Temple, and there will be black tigers." Eat, so we must move away immediately, otherwise you will be like your brother." Yiqiu nodded in understanding, and then her father sent her and grandma to her aunt's house. From this moment on, Yiqiu's life changed drastically. From then on, she lived a life of dependence on others and a wandering life. It was also from that moment that she learned to run and wanted to get rid of everything in her childhood, so she lost her childhood.
"Yiqiu, you are old enough to go to school, so I have to send you home to school." Grandma said to Yiqiu, Yiqiu didn't ask anything, nodded and said "Okay." There is no expression on it. In one year, in this kind of dependent environment, Yiqiu ran too fast and turned into a sensible, well-behaved but taciturn child, completely lacking the liveliness and willfulness that a child should have. Soon, she went to her aunt's house in her hometown to start her study career. The world of a child is simple. During these days, she lived quite well. Because she met new classmates and neighbors, and there were people to play with her every day, there were more smiles on her face. However, life always kicks you when you are about to stand up. After attending preschool for about half a semester with her eldest aunt, Yiqiu fell ill. The illness was serious and she had to suspend school for treatment at home. At this time, the newly built small house at home was ready for people to live in. Grandma also came back, so she took the sick Yiqiu back.
Yiqiu will never forget the days when she was sick. There was lightning and thunder outside the house, and heavy rain poured down from the sky like the sky collapsed. The heavy rain continued for half a month, and the rain poured down the new body. A small part of the small house they built was also flooded. Grandma was walking around in the house wearing high boots. Yiqiu was lying on the bed, covered with a thick quilt. She had a high fever for a week and still couldn't get rid of it. Yiqiu was in a daze due to fever. Suddenly, a scene she saw on TV about a person who was about to die appeared in her mind. She asked her grandma in a hoarse voice: "Grandma, I feel so uncomfortable and my throat hurts. Am I going to die?" "Will you never see your parents from other places again?" Grandma patted the quilt, "What nonsense are you talking about? You'll be fine soon!" After a while, grandma sat down with a bowl of chicken. "The chickens at home are all drowned. I made a few bowls of chicken. You eat them all. After eating, the disease will be cured." Yiqiu was helped up from the bed by her grandma and looked at her hands. Yiqiu had no appetite for the meat she was served, but she was afraid that her grandma would be sad and that she would die if she didn't eat it, so she endured the discomfort and took a few bites.
The sky that had been gloomy for half a month finally cleared up. The sounds of frogs in the distance mingled with each other, and Father Sun showed his smiling face. A gorgeous rainbow set up a beautiful bridge over the fields, and the air was filled with laughter. Mixed with the fresh fragrance of earth and dealer, everything seems to be wonderful. Yiqiu's illness gradually recovered, and then she returned to school, but it was not her previous school, but the primary school in her village. In other words, she had to get to know new classmates and new teachers again, and everything started from scratch. here we go.
When she arrived at the new school, Yiqiu was a little scared. She was afraid that the new classmates she met would not be as friendly as those from the previous school, and that her classmates would not like her as a transfer student. But after getting along for some time, Yiqiu's thoughts were quickly dismissed.
The world of children is very simple. You give me a piece of candy and I lend you an eraser, and the two of them become good friends. Yiqiu adapted very quickly here and quickly met many new classmates and made good friends. The only bad thing is that her deskmate is a very naughty boy who always bullies her every day. He secretly hides her pen and takes up more than half of the desk, leaving only a small space for Yiqiu. Yiqiu has a very docile personality. When others bully her, she lets them bully her and never refutes or tells the teacher.
Until one day, Yiqiu met Qiaoqiao, and this girl appeared in Yiqiu's life from then on. "Zhou Hao, stand up and recite "Spring Dawn" again, otherwise you will be punished by standing all morning." Zhou Hao stood up slowly, nodded and said, "Squad leader, give me a chance, promise to memorize it next time." "Qiao Qiao said angrily, "I tell you, there is no need to discuss it. You are not allowed to bully Yiqiu in the future, otherwise I will ask you to endorse me every day." Hearing this sentence, Yiqiu's eyes widened. Looking at Qiao Qiao, Qiao Qiao said, "Yiqiu, you will be my friend from now on. If anyone wants to bully you, just tell me and I will help you get revenge." At this moment, Yi Qiu was very touched and happy. The two girls They looked at each other and smiled, and from then on the two became inseparable good friends. Qiao Qiao is the monitor of their class. She is both good in character and academic, and very enthusiastic. She is the favorite of all teachers and classmates. Of course, in Yi Qiu's heart, Qiao Qiao is not only her good friend, but also her role model.
The days passed peacefully like this, Yiqiu was still as taciturn, but because of the classmates and friends around her, and even more because of Qiaoqiao, there were more smiles on her face. One night when she came home from school, her grandma said to Yiqiu, "Your father and mother will be back tomorrow. Don't delay school. Come back early." Yiqiu was very calm when she heard the news. In the past two years, whether Yiqiu was at school or sick, , including every bit of life, they are absent, so to Yiqiu, her parents are like the most unfamiliar familiar people, and she does not have much affection for them. But that night, Yiqiu secretly fell asleep, a little excited and a little hopeful.
The next day, it snowed heavily in the sky, and the weather became extremely cold. The school bell rang. As soon as the teacher said school was over, Yiqiu rushed out and said to Qiao Qiao: "Qiao Qiao, my parents are back today. I have to go back quickly and won't let you play together." Qiao Qiao also said with a smile on her face: "I know, please go slower on the road." Yiqiu trotted all the way. Going home, she was exhausted and out of breath when she got home. As soon as she entered the door, her mother jumped out from behind the door to scare her. Yiqiu was startled, and then she looked at her mother and laughed. At dinner, the family ate together. Mom and dad brought food to Yiqiu from time to time. The family was talking and laughing. Nothing seemed abnormal. However, no one told Yiqiu that she was working outside during this time of the year. My parents are back together, but it’s not normal.
Some people say that before a storm comes, it is always extremely calm, just like everything seems to be peaceful before a disaster strikes. The next day, Yiqiu came back from school and saw her father packing things. Her mother was no longer at home. When she asked, she found out that her mother had left first and her father would leave at night. Yiqiu saw the small green-covered notebook on the table, picked it up and asked, "Grandma, what is this?" Grandma said, "This is your parents' divorce certificate." Yiqiu was as calm as ever, Because she didn't understand what a divorce certificate was, and no one told her that if she got divorced, they would never be together again, and no one told her that she had no home. Then the silly Yiqiu said to her aunt who came to visit, "I saw the divorce certificate of my father and mother." The aunt asked, "Xiaoqiu, are you feeling uncomfortable?" Yiqiu didn't understand why her aunt would I asked her if she felt uncomfortable, so she said to her aunt, "I don't feel uncomfortable!" Then she listened to her grandma and aunt talking together all the time, and she also heard her aunt say, "Do you think Xiaoqiu is stupid, parents?" She still feels uncomfortable after being separated. Alas, it’s no wonder, she is still a child and is not sensible.”
No matter how little children are, they will not be the children they were back then, and children will grow up. , especially children who have been forcing themselves to run ahead of time will grow faster. Two years later, Yiqiu understood the meaning of divorce, and Yiqiu also experienced the difference between herself and her classmates.
When it rains, other people’s parents come to pick them up or give them umbrellas, but Yiqiu only has neighbors who give her one when they give umbrellas to their children or run home directly in the rain; the dirt road at home is abnormal after rain. It was difficult to walk away. Other classmates had their parents carry them back, but Yiqiu had a hard time walking home alone. She would often get stuck in the mud and couldn't get out for a long time. Occasionally, she would be lucky enough to meet a senior student she had met before. Her sister helped her; during the parent-teacher meeting, when signing the notice, it was Yiqiu who replaced her parents; every time she wrote a composition about my father or mother or talked about my parents with classmates, Yiqiu would always People fled. As she grew older, Yiqiu knew more and more, and the more she learned, the more tired she became. She began to feel a little sad, and she also began to hate her parents.
In 2005, Yiqiu was 10 years old and in third grade. At this time, my sister Qingxia, who had been living at my grandma's house, was picked up. Qingxia doesn't like this home, nor does she like her grandma. In fact, as Qingxia said five years later: "No normal person would like that home." In fact, Yiqiu also hates this home, and she doesn't like her grandma either, because Grandma's feudal thoughts are too serious, and her patriarchal mentality is deeply ingrained. She is only good to Uncle Yiqiu's son, and is not good to girls. Yiqiu has learned this deeply over the years, but Yiqiu has become accustomed to bearing everything alone. Perhaps children cannot avoid making noises when living together, and the same goes for Yiqiu and her sister. Yiqiu has been living with her grandma these years, and her grandma often speaks ill of Yiqiu's mother and grandma in front of Yiqiu, saying that Yiqiu's broken family is all because of her mother. Yiqiu is very stupid, and she will believe whatever her grandma says. Therefore, she has a lot of prejudice against her mother and grandma, so she always says a lot of unpleasant things to hurt her sister when she quarrels with her. As she grows older, Yiqiu has her own judgment of right and wrong. She no longer blindly believes in her grandmother's words, and begins to have a new understanding of her mother's people.
It was not until Qingxia was admitted to junior high school that Yiqiu realized how much she needed her sister. But the moment her sister carried her luggage to report to junior high school, she never came back. She had had enough of everything in this family and returned to her grandma's house. From then on, Yiqiu's life fell into gloom again. Sometimes, she wanted to leave here like her sister, but she thought too much. On the one hand, she thought that it was already hard enough for her mother to raise her sister by herself. If she goes, it will increase the burden on her mother. On the other hand, after all, it was her grandma who raised her. If she left just as she said, she would be sorry for her grandma (maybe grandma doesn't feel that way). Yiqiu is too sensible. She has never thought about herself and has no courage to take this step. Maybe this is the price she pays for running ahead of time.
After her sister left her, Yiqiu set a goal for herself. She must pass the junior high school where her sister was, and then be able to be with her again. So starting from the fifth grade, Yiqiu studied She became very serious, and her good friend Qiaoqiao stayed with her. The two often endorsed and studied together. During this time, Yiqiu also began to get tired of the lies told by adults. Regarding her mother and father, Yiqiu felt with her heart that she knew who was good to her. Grandma still teaches her bad things about her mother's side of the family every day. When her grandma comes to visit her occasionally, she will also say bad things about her father's side of the family. Yiqiu did not expose it or refute it, but she no longer believed it. Yiqiu did not want to question who was true and who was false. Facing a family full of lies, Yiqiu began to run harder. She wanted to escape childhood as quickly as possible, and she also dreamed of skipping teenagers and running directly to adulthood. Yiqiu wrote in her diary:
"In the boundlessness of time
Stop your life outside of lies
Stay pure
Being anxious to grow up is not a sin
Being influenced by what you have heard is not a reason
You can have bad character before you are sensible
You can be blind and without judgment
You can blindly believe what others say
If your character is not good after you become sensible
It has nothing to do with others
Still looking forward to the life you like< /p>
I still have to be true to myself
Purity will always be my attitude”
Finally, Yiqiu ushered in the first important exam in her life - getting promoted to junior high school. .
The day before Yiqiu's exam, Qiao Qiao said to Yiqiu: "We all have to work hard. We will pass the exam in each school and class, and we will be in the best class, and then we will be classmates." "I will definitely do my best. I will try my best to take the exam well and be with you not only in junior high school, but also in high school and college." When she said this, Yiqiu suddenly became very scared, fearing that she would be separated from Qiao Qiao in the future. Because Qiao Qiao will definitely be able to get into the experimental class that makes Yi Qiu daunting, but she is in danger. In the evening, Yiqiu received a call from her sister, "Xiaoqiu, take the exam well. I'll wait for you at school. When you come, we can be together again." After hanging up the phone, Yiqiu secretly cried. She thought For a long time, I told myself that I must work hard, I must go to the best class in that school, and I must not let my sister and Qiao Qiao down. Then she lay in bed early, recuperating her energy and waiting for the exam the next day.