Away from the familiar mountains and rivers, I got on the high-speed train heading west. At the other end of the track, he was waiting thoughtfully, but I couldn't find much joy.
It seems that I can see through it at a glance. In the next few days, every person I will face, every smiling face, every greeting, every eye contact, every toast, every greeting, Every drunken remark... There were reservations for five or six dinners over there, and my friends were looking forward to me with eagerness.
It’s not that I have a noble status, I’m just an ordinary housewife.
1,
In just four hours, we will plunge from ordinary life into another atmosphere. A simple and short trip is certainly a kind of travel, but I always feel aimless.
Xiao Qi sent a message saying not to tell her sister when she will arrive, because Lao L will arrange a banquet later. For them, they need this face.
He seems to understand me better and has a tacit understanding in arrangements. I said "hmm" to express my understanding.
Old L is my brother-in-law, who is older than us. Fate sometimes happens to some special people, and then they establish an inseparable family relationship with the people around them.
My brother-in-law respects me very much because of his helplessness towards my sister’s innocence.
The life of a wealthy family is a kind of "torture" for a woman who cannot cultivate leisure and elegance. She doesn't need to cook, she doesn't need to nurse, she doesn't need to worry about everything in life. Her main task seems to be to dress herself up.
The children are still too young. Although the aunt takes good care of them, she cannot walk around freely and has no space to interact with more people. Life soaked her like boiled water. She was bored, depressed, and empty, almost suffocating her.
So, she went to practice yoga, went to drink with people around her, went to beauty salons, went shopping... She tried to do all the things she thought could kill time, and only thought about how to consume them every day. Full of excitement and throbbing energy. Lao L was very troubled by this and spent a lot of brain cells arranging her life.
People's social status, whether it is self-proclaimed or flattered by others, is also striving for this, hoping to establish a higher-level life circle, and always be content with themselves.
When many people are having disputes about housewives, most people’s views are just based on their own definition of their living environment and knowledge. There is no absolute in anything, and the reference object is a very important existence. For example, I, a housewife, seem too quiet compared to my sister. I seem to have a unique style in both the upper and lower circles, like a model. I don't make any waves in external affairs, just like a pool of still water, I always go my own way.
Perhaps, a person's so-called social value must at least be recognized by those around him. Human beings are always products of the environment.
Old L also hopes that my sister will be like me, to support her husband and raise her children peacefully, to abide by her duties, to avoid useless social interactions, to play with flowers and plants, to quietly read poems and books, and to be isolated from the world... But, this is Totally impossible.
My brother-in-law’s thirst for ‘virtue’ has made me ‘noble’. He always wanted my "quietness" to influence my sister's "craziness". However, my sister's aura is too strong. Every time I get along with her, it stimulates my wildness. She often leads me to forget about east, west, north and south. Whenever I am urged to drift away, the girl secretly enjoys it. She has many plans.
But this time, I am really not in the mood. I am always troubled by a lot of useless emotions. I can’t express them or let them go. I just want to escape from all the turmoil and hustle and bustle, and just want to be quiet.
In order to get rid of the meaningless entertainment in all aspects, the girl and I protested to Xiao Qi, saying that we would leave tomorrow morning and not stay for the time being. As for where to go, the girl casually said: " Go to Chengdu. ”
We have been to Chengdu once last year, and the girl is still not satisfied.
At eight o'clock in the evening, I sent the fruits and vegetables from my hometown to my sister's house. My sister had already gone to play. Old L was waiting at home. When he saw me, he happily shouted, "Beauty, finally here." Three The two children were lying on the carpet watching TV. They hadn't seen each other for a long time and missed them very much. I picked them up and kissed them one by one.
My brother-in-law called my sister back. She had lost some weight, but her complexion was not very good. I asked her why she went to play at night? She said that people in the chamber of commerce are busy during the day and only have time to gather at night.
I said to my sister: "Tomorrow we will go to Chengdu, and we will have a good time with you when we come back." There was surprise in my sister's expression, and there was light in her eyes, but when she glanced at Old L, it turned dark and she just said : "Okay! I must come back."
I know what she is thinking. I can't tell what kind of life model is the most ideal. Perhaps, between gains and losses, there is always a part that everyone cannot choose independently.
Life is not sunshine everywhere.
2.
People came here in droves.
It is difficult to truly experience the thousand-year history of a famous scenic spot when walking through it in a hurry amid crowds, let alone practicing Zen and enlightenment. The Lingyun Buddha is like this, the Emei Golden Summit is like this, and the Qingcheng Mountain is like this.
I am very confused. What do tourists come here to enjoy? Xiao Qi remained very interested in this, and the girl was also happy and admiring her, which was always the instinctive choice of many people. But I can never find the end of the road.
Under the bright sun and wrapped in the heat, it is inevitable to sweat profusely. There are so many beauties in the country, but it seems that they are not as eye-catching as the various Sichuan snacks on the roadside: sweet potatoes, corn, tofu, chicken legs, old bacon... Walking always makes people hungry easily. The girl was like a housekeeper, dragging me all the way to stop me from being seduced by these things.
And I really want to eat.
The Sanjiang River is long and flowing, with modern high-rise buildings on the other side, and boats cruising back and forth in the rolling waves under the mountains. I, a little girl from the hilly and mountainous areas of the south of the Yangtze River, have never seen such a big river. I am afraid of heights and water. I climbed down the plank road with shaking legs and touched the railings. I stood at the foot of the giant Buddha and looked up to the Buddha's mercy devoutly. I didn't know what to do first. Pray? Or should I sincerely repent first? After thinking for less than a minute, I was pushed by the crowd vying to take photos and had to politely give up my seat. Looking up again, the Buddha is still looking far away under the clouds. The side is no longer dazzling. I think if it lowers its eyebrows and looks down, I will be as insignificant as dust in the crowd. I am still a little embarrassed. It may not be able to save me or anything.
In front of the stone case, candles flickered, and the eye-catching merit box made it even harder for me to meditate. I couldn’t figure out the right and wrong of the karma of the things in the troubled world. Is it with the Buddha, or should I suffer alone? . After taking back my wandering mind, I couldn't help but worry again, thinking that if I donated a sesame oil, would it be in cash? Or is it better to scan the QR code? Which method would Buddha prefer?
With some unclear regrets about the Buddha, I climbed up the nine-curved plank road and walked side by side with the Buddha. I still couldn't help but lower my eyebrows and ask: Buddha, who am I?
Keep going!
In the strong commercial atmosphere, the burning incense candles in front of the Samantabhadra Hall of Huazang Temple in Emei always feel that it lacks the charm of meditation. On the Sumeru throne, the Samantabhadra Bodhisattva of the Ten Directions rides on a six-tusked auspicious elephant. He takes the Four Great Vows and obtains the enlightenment of "universal salvation of all living beings and endless great deeds." However, Zen philosophy is not so easy to get started. Most people are just transpiration from the cliff. The rising clouds and mist, as well as the imposing view of the mountains in the distance, took away all the concentration.
In front of each Buddha statue, it looks a little clean.
Standing on a high place and looking at the Cliff of Sacrifice, I couldn’t help but feel a little dazed, and sighed in confusion: Buddha, with your mercy, can mortals really let go of all the sins they carry in this world with just one jump? debt?
There seemed to be a voice whispering: Maybe!
Fortunately, the girl shouted, came up and pulled me away happily. Under the charm of her acne-covered face, she quickly brought back the passion that I had retreated from, and re-invested in the magnificent mountains and rivers in front of me. Go for a visual feast.
Taking the cableway up and then hiking down, the trip to the Golden Summit lasted almost six hours, and we did not return to the zero kilometer mark until around 3 p.m. After checking the map, I discovered that this route successfully avoided the central attractions of Emei. Xiao Qi always wanted to save time and effort. I didn’t plan to stay in Emei for one more day, but the girl was a little reluctant, so I suggested that we stop by Qingyin Pavilion for a walk! Xiao Qi showed resistance for the first time, thinking that he was tired from walking, so he asked him to wait in the car.
My girl and I walked in the opposite direction to the crowd going down the mountain. The tour guide said that the ecological monkey area is only three kilometers away. However, deep in the mountains and canyons, dark and desolate, and sometimes on deserted sections, we also feel lonely and fearful. The mountain road is rugged, so walk slowly. It took nearly half an hour to reach Qingyin Pavilion, which leads to the Wannian Temple line. The crowds of people hiking down the mountain are getting denser and the roads in the mountain are getting more crowded.
"Why bother with silk and bamboo? The mountains and rivers have clear sounds." The rough rocks in the valley are naturally cut by the running water, and the ravines are deeply embedded. Watch the fierce collision of black and white water, impacting an ox-heart stone. It is naturally created, carved by humanities, and becomes stylish and meaningful. Go up the slippery stone steps to the ancient "Jiewang Pavilion". In the ancient temple, the Sanskrit music is melodious, and the green smoke is lingering in front of the temple. I caress the ancient pavilions and inscriptions all the way, and look at the slightly weathered cliff stone carvings on the mountain wall. In the mossy green of the original trees, the noisy human voices cannot disturb this meaning. Thousands of years of Zen retreat.
At five o'clock, the sun no longer falls in the valley. The air is fresh, but it is also damp and cold, much like night is coming.
Although there was still an endless stream of people going up the mountain, we couldn’t bear to keep the people down the mountain waiting, and the girl lost interest in continuing to the monkey area. We hurriedly turned back with reluctance.
As a result, what is known as the number one scenic spot in Emei can only end in a superficial way.
3.
Return to the hotel and plan tomorrow’s trip together. Looking at the map, I found that Heizhugou is also in Leshan. It is rare to drive there. The recommendation is that it is in a semi-developed state and has pure natural scenery. I yearn for it very much.
Xiao Qi didn’t say anything, the girl didn’t care, just go!
However, I didn’t expect the roads in Ebian to be so busy and crowded. After walking for more than 100 kilometers and nearly two hours, we entered the Jinkou Grand Canyon section. Along with the rolling water of the Dadu River, the number of people gradually became less and less. Soon, we entered the Heizhugou Scenic Area. At the mouth of the river stood the "China's Bermuda, the Black Bamboo Valley of the World” banner.
If travel is regarded as a touch of the world, places with humanities and history can certainly make people deepen their knowledge and thinking, and enhance the depth of their thoughts, but for me, the stuffy heat in the crowd is, after all, It is a tired sleep; but the unfettered natural landscape can truly relax people and wake them up. Only by staying away from glitz can they truly relax their mood and wash away the dust.
But everyone’s touch points are different.
It is fifty kilometers from Kawaguchi to the scenic spot, and there are high mountains and valleys all the way. We did not encounter any traffic, so we traveled alone. From time to time, there are waterfalls hanging down from mountains thousands of meters above sea level on both sides of the bank. Bailian crashes into the valley bottom with great force. The high mountains and green screen are majestic, and the scenery becomes more and more amazing as you walk. It satisfies the visual curiosity, and ignores the accumulated depression in the heart, and the body and mind become lighter. I have more and more expectations for Heizhugou Malengjiu Wetland.
At the entrance of the scenic spot, two simple staff members made a simple registration and reminded them not to leave the plank road.
Mali Lengjiu means "meadow covered with flowers". But this season, the rare Davidia involucrata and alpine rhododendron are out of flowering season, and the mountains are only full of green, with some cattail roots blooming on the roadside, flying white catkins. In the vast grassland, there are clumps of green ferns growing, which is clean and natural. Surrounded by high mountains in the distance, with snow-white clouds covering the peaks, the scenery is unreal and magnificent, just like in a dream.
The birds chirp softly, the breeze is cool, the clear stream meanders out, and the plank road extends deep into the pasture.
Xiao Qi walked a few steps on the plank road, then returned with a frown. He said his feet hurt and he didn’t want to walk, so he had to wait in the car. I felt lonely and regretful, but I understood. Without thinking too much, he and his daughter happily walked towards the sun-drenched meadow.
There are very few tourists, no more than twenty people scattered here and there.
We walked on the plank road and saw various small grass flowers blooming on the grass. Xiagu ball grass has become rare in my hometown. I didn’t expect that it is everywhere here. The sun shines on the rocks and on the flowing water everywhere, it is so lively and lively. The coolness of the plateau minus the burning sensation of the sun makes it comfortable and pleasant.
The wind gently caressed the cheek, as if it was afraid of using too much force and waking something up. Quietness is the main theme here.
Quietness has a sound. In the chirping of birds, in the slight murmur of grass and trees, in the shallow singing of streams, the quietness brought out carries the breath of absolute freedom; quietness is a sense of freedom. Comfort, falling into the warmth of the sun, on the hillside, as the plank road spreads, up, up, climbing up the original forest, then up the mountain, falling into the clouds and mist, slowly releasing in the open mountains and fields; quiet, It is the natural rhythm of life, with cattle and sheep lying leisurely in the distance, and white, black and colorful butterflies flying gracefully.
Yes, there was no more unnecessary noise in the wind. The girl and I slowed down our steps, set our gazes softly, and slowed down our breathing, for fear that we would exert too much force and disturb the tranquility here.
Walking into the mountain forest, the dappled sunlight shines with alluring soft light, falling on the plank road, falling among the green moss and rocks, and falling on the taller Emei fern, vividly The vivid flow is as colorful as a fairy tale in the forest; ahead, where the sun shines, the green becomes particularly bright and delicate, and the clean leaves, when the wind blows, gently sway and dance alone, how comfortable they are! The girl and I couldn't help but sit cross-legged on the plank road, completely letting go of our bodies and minds, listening to the wind whispering, caressing the treetops, falling into the forest, where the sunshine was shining, smiling and chanting to ourselves . Quietness is a sound, and it is a picture of "mom and down" flowing; stillness is silent, and it is a washed soul, ethereal and pure.
Sitting in the pavilion on the top of the mountain, I deliberately teased my daughter: "Girl, you said, here is surrounded by mountains, open and closed, the feng shui must be good, they say that there are many famous mountain monks in the world, if this hillside Wouldn't it be very appropriate to build a temple on top of it, with bells in the morning and drums in the evening, simple clothes and vegetarian food?"
The girl said in a hateful voice, "I don't know how you can think this way, how can you bear to harm the world's human beings?" The center of desire, put it in such a beautiful and pure place?"
"What do you mean, the temple is a place for monks to cultivate, so where does the desire come from?"
"Why not? It's true that practitioners have no desires or requests, but that's not true for those who come to burn incense. They come from all over the world and walk into the Buddhist hall to ask God for wealth, children, peace, promotion, or forgiveness. Aren’t they all the desires of human nature? The Bodhisattva is compassionate and has collected them all. I don’t know if there is Cihang Purudu, but I am sure that the temple has collected all kinds of desires of human nature.”
I had an idea instantly. Feeling guilty, he corrected his mistake after realizing it: "Then, let's not build it. It's valuable to keep this peace." But I was secretly happy in my heart, because of the girl's transparent state of mind, or her understanding of the natural environment. A protective heart.
The mobile phone signal on the mountain was very weak. The girl received a message from her father urging her to come down quickly. She didn’t know if she could go out today. I looked at the time and saw that it was not yet twelve o'clock. It was still so early. I didn't know what he meant, but it also made us lose interest in playing and started to hurry down the mountain. I devoured the scenery along the way with my eyes.
At the foot of the mountain, there are meadows and wetlands, towering ancient trees, clear streams, meandering gracefully among the grass, butterflies flying in groups, and a natural harmony. Where the sun shines, it is like the scene I have sought countless times in my dreams. It is wild, ancient, solemn, orderly, with graceful tree shadows and lush weeds. Everything is spread out perfectly in front of me.
I really couldn't bear to leave, so I walked slowly, causing the girl to turn around several times and drag her, urging her to hurry up.
After more than two hours, I still had a lot to say. My soul was still wandering in that sunny place, but I could only say goodbye in a hurry.
When we got back to the car, Xiao Qi was in a very impatient mood. I didn’t know why, so I suggested that we go have lunch first and then walk for two hours in the afternoon before going out.
After coming down from the mountain, Xiao Qi did not stop in front of the hotel, but drove directly to the Heizhugou scenic spot.
My girl and I walked for a few days and felt pain in my legs. However, in front of such beautiful scenery, I consciously could persist. Xiao Qi was determined not to get out of the car, and he didn't say anything. The midday sun fell on the concrete road, making it look white. The ultraviolet rays from the plateau were invisible and intangible. My girl and I hurriedly walked into the shade of the trees on the mountain, trying to get to know this place as quickly as possible.
After meeting a few tourists in the canyon, the further you go in, the quieter you get. Alpine canyons, deep forests, surging water in the valleys, rope bridges and plank roads, lonely and lonely. I think of the black bamboo introduced in the introduction. There were pandas, clouded leopards, monkeys and other wild animals in the ditch, and they suddenly felt fear. The two women really had little ability to defend themselves in the face of natural dangers. In addition, Xiao Qi's impatience had already ruined the interest. We couldn't do it anymore. The motivation to go on was gone, and within half an hour, I ran back down the mountain.
The girl said: "Let's go! No more playing."
"Why no more playing? I didn't say I won't let you play."
" How can we be in the mood to play with you like this?" The girl protested directly.
"I didn't say I wouldn't wait for you." He was always reasonable, but the girl was indignant.
I had a question, so I raised it directly: "Why did you just say you couldn't go out today? It's still so early, there are so few tourists here, and there won't be any traffic jams."
" My plan today is to rush to Dujiangyan, which will take at least four hours. I don’t want to come here, but you want to come. There are only two scenic spots and nothing. What is worth seeing?”
"If you don't want to come, you can just say, why do you have such an attitude? Why bother?"
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Finally the truth came out. The war was about to break out. I felt extremely desolate, "I am Who? Where am I?" Unconsciously, I thought of Lingyun Buddha's compassionate appearance.
He tried hard to suppress his temper and stopped talking all the way. Thinking about the cold sunshine and tranquility in Mali, I really couldn't bear to see it replaced by unreasonable resentment so quickly. It's not worth it.
Everyone’s understanding of the world is different, everyone’s end point in life is also different, and everyone’s spiritual needs are also different. We cannot force people to understand, or make people understand each other.
People are born lonely, but they are not decadent because of it. They just need a gentleness that can relieve me and tolerate my sensibility, such as the gentle wind or sunshine, like the cold weather in Mali.
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It was the girl’s wish to go to Qingcheng Mountain. After yesterday’s disappointing experience, the girl directly suggested to her father: “If your feet hurt, just send us there and you go back to the hotel. Wait, and you’ll save a ticket.”
It’s also strange that in front of the girl, he has lost his temper, his legs no longer hurt, and his mood is better. Perhaps he is more willing to travel. And go.
The girl disliked me wearing a sports suit for several days, so she forced me to wear a skirt to climb Qingcheng Mountain. I thought it wouldn’t be that difficult, so I went with her idea. Who would have thought that the cableway only reaches Halfway up the mountain, the rest of the way is all about climbing.
Youyou Xuanchan said that he did not take the ropeway when he came, and the journey took seven hours. I was really panicked. After running around for a few days, I felt a little lame. In order to match the skirt, I wore a pair of sandals, but after a few steps, my feet got stuck and hurt. In the end, I had to go barefoot, lift up my skirt, and don't care about the mountains of Laojun Pavilion.
Thanks to Xuan Chan’s explanations along the way, I also gained some understanding of the heavenly masters enshrined in Taoist temples.
"Qingcheng is the most secluded place in the world", and it is worthy of its name. The geology and landform are characterized by "Danyan ravines and red cliffs", which is the same as the Danxia landform in our hometown. However, our Danxia Mountains are mostly Isolated cliffs, Qingcheng Qianshan is an overall structure of 15 square kilometers, with connected peaks and ridges, crisscrossing ravines, dense forests, and numerous caves.
The intuitive feeling is that the mountains are high, the roads are narrow, it is quiet and clean, and it is indeed suitable for seclusion.
In fact, after experiencing the unique scenery of Emei and the original natural ecology of Heizhugou, people will inevitably suffer from aesthetic fatigue. The elegance and tranquility of Qingcheng Mountain made my senses a little numb, and it was more of a pain in my legs and feet.
It’s time to go back. With the powerful ability to repair estrangement, I returned to my sister with the satisfaction of traveling.
My brother-in-law would call us on time every time it was time for dinner, not giving us any chance to escape. After two days of rest, everyone started to get restless. Dinner reservations started to be made, various fruits were delivered, and my sister also started planning barbecues, homestays and other programs. Xiao Qi was afraid that I would have a grudge, so he bought me gifts to coax me. However, I just I miss my son who is in high school at home, and I still have to continue my work as a housewife, and I feel like I am about to return home. He took the girl with him, said a brief farewell to his sister, and evacuated on the third day.
Life is not perfect. For example, the thoughts before sacrificing one's life on the cliff, or the relief under the sun are just one end of the river of the heart. People will eventually have to face reality and return to secular affairs.
Traveling, to capture the magnificence of mountains and rivers, should also gain some strength and allow the soul to be reborn again.