When I was a child, my grandmother liked to grow flowers, so I followed her and watched her play with flowers and plants. At that time, I had a small wish in my heart, hoping to raise one or two pots of flowers on my balcony when I grow up. It is either a peony-like flower or a simple floret.
From then on, memory is like a broken file, and there is no deep memory of flowers and plants except for an occasional moment of love. The dream of growing flowers as a child has also been put on hold, not that I have forgotten it, because I have been trapped in a small cage to study since then, and it is not convenient to live in the dormitory of the school after I went to college.
It was not until I saw a picture recording the growth of the bowl lotus in a friend's space and watched it grow from a seed into a bud and then into a small round green leaf that I suddenly made up my mind to raise a few such lovely bowl lotus plants myself.
Speaking of the seeds of the bowl lotus, I have been struggling for a long time. When it comes to flower cultivation, my first thought is to cultivate with soil, because plants cultivated with water are rarely seen in the north. After careful consideration, I realized that there was an omnipotent seller named Taobao, so I logged on Taobao to search. Fortunately, I really found it.
It is very painful for me to wait for a long time after buying seeds. I can't wait to realize my dream, but the seeds are already on my way. In those days, I consulted the seller in detail and said that it is enough to change the water two or three times a day, and when buying seeds, it is also equipped with nutrient solution that is helpful for plant growth. When it germinates to a certain extent, it can be transplanted into the soil, wait for it to grow leaves, and wait for it to bloom.
I am extremely happy to think that I can finally grow flowers. My roommate also smiled and said, "You are such a person who doesn't live long. I'm afraid it was a whim. Don't leave those poor seeds in the water at that time. It's terrible. "
Hearing my roommate's joke, I made a bet in my heart. Anyway, I will raise this bowl of lotus.
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On the day when the seeds came, I received a phone call from the courier excitedly and ran to the school gate, as if expecting the arrival of a little life, and I don't know why I was so nervous and expecting.
Slowly open the courier, a bag of seeds, a small plastic flowerpot and a bottle of green plant nutrient solution.
Looking at the opening picture of the online "Wanlian", I picked up the scissors and started. The seeds of Wanlian are hard and small, and they are pure black. Divided into "pointed" and "round". The so-called opening is to plunge a knife or scissors into the round head of the seed and make a small gap. I held the small seed of the bowl lotus in my finger. To tell the truth, I am really shocked that such a small seed can germinate in water and produce such beautiful flowers.
I think I chose a small sharp knife or scissors because they are sharp, so I took the initiative to choose a sharper tool-an awl. First of all, aim the awl at the depression of the round head, twist your wrist after speaking and stab it a little. However, I twisted for a long time, but there was no response. Then I increased my strength. Because the stress area is very small, the awl and the seed are staggered, and the awl hits the index finger of the right hand at once.
I didn't feel any pain at that time, but after a while I began to bleed. My roommate came over and said how careless I was and told me to stop it. But my own heart is shocked. It seems that everything is difficult at the beginning. Like a simple "open" link, I spent a lot of time not talking, and even spent my blood.
I changed my tools to scissors, but I was really careful this time. I put the towel in my hand and held some small seeds in my hand. About an hour later, the opening ceremony finally ended. I excitedly poured water into a plastic flowerpot, put the seeds in the water, and then watched quietly, as if they could germinate in an instant.
Looking at my little bleeding wound, I suddenly felt a lot of emotion. Is it possible for any kind of life to grow without the help of others? Bowl lily needs people's help to grow buds as soon as possible, and the growth of children needs parents' teaching from childhood to adulthood.
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I thought of my junior high school, because I was a self-taught child since I was a child. Later, in junior high school, because of a little misunderstanding with the teacher, I was inspired to be rebellious. I started to confront the teacher at school and regarded my homework as trouble at home. At that time, my mother always advised me to be fine, but I looked ungrateful. In the end, my mother could only shed tears of sadness and helplessness, and there was nothing I could do.
When I was in high school, I always made trouble for my parents because I didn't study hard. When I was a child, I felt that the most unhappy thing was to embarrass my parents, so I was always regarded as proud, good at studying and polite by my parents. For a child, this may be a high evaluation.
But as I grew up day by day, my rebellious mentality gradually increased, and I began to do whatever I wanted regardless of my parents' feelings. At that time, although I always gave my parents trouble, they still didn't give up on me. Although I sometimes say a few words of disappointment, it is more encouragement after education.
Now think about it, I am like a few small lotus seeds, knowing that other people's help is helpful to me, but I will still do some resistance, maybe not from the heart, maybe from the heart. Unintentional harm is more like my parents' disappointment with me. Every parent wants his child to succeed. When their children are disobedient and willful, parents will feel sad no matter how much they love us.
Thinking about it, I unconsciously gave birth to more affection for this bowl of lotus, and then I looked at the small seeds that sank at the bottom of the water, and I actually had a kind of joy as a mother.
Although it kept me waiting for so long, took me so long and even made me bleed, I still hope it can sprout, more than when I first got it.
This is an inexplicable emotion, unable to speak, full of joy.
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I thought it would sprout as I expected after waiting for two days. But I didn't expect it to bring me an empty joy, except that it became bigger because it was soaked in water, and there was no response at all. I looked up a lot of information about Wanlian on the Internet and wondered if I had done something wrong. Change the water on time, and put 5 drops of nutrient solution in half a basin of water. Everything is based on the internet, but I don't know what it is.
I really can't think of it, so I have to go to the space to see the photos of my friends and see what the difference is. This is really I don't know, I was shocked at first sight. After carefully reading the pictures, I realized that my mouth was too "gentle", so I fished them out of the water and opened my mouth again. Looking at the terrible seeds planted by myself, I muttered to myself, "demo, it's time for you to sprout this time."
Come to think of it, life is the same. We always say that life needs excitement, which may be brought to you by others or by ourselves. Too often, we don't know what we can do, and we are constantly looking for something that can stimulate us in our lives. Such things will stimulate our unknown energy and let us grow up as soon as possible. Just like the seed of this bowl of lotus, if you don't give it enough "stimulation", it will never germinate smoothly. If you want it to sprout, you must break it first. This is a necessary process, not dispensable.
I'm not a person who follows the plan. Maybe because I am an only child, I have been like a baby held in my hand since I was a child. No one put pressure on me. Everything about me looks so smooth in the eyes of others. Many people envy me and I am so free. But others don't know that I grew up in such an environment, and I also have my own shortcomings. Sometimes you are moody. Everything goes well, and sometimes it will be willful if it doesn't. In this way, the influence of any living environment on people is two-sided.
Now, after four years of college life, I have gradually returned to the track of "normal people", and I will no longer be arrogant and willful, and I will not only think about myself.
For me, this is a kind of growth, such as the opening of the bowl lotus, waiting for germination and expecting to get better.
five
Then, I went back to my bowl of lotus. I thought growing flowers and grass would make me happy. If I have nothing to do, I will sit and look at the flowers, and all my troubles will be forgotten. I didn't expect anything to look simple, but it's actually hard to compare with the difficulty I expected.
My bowl lotus still hasn't sprouted. It let me down again and again. I finally lost my patience for a long time. It seems that this is the most concerned thing since I was a child, but it has repeatedly made my fantasy go up in smoke. It is false to say that you are not angry, even if you are talking to Wan Lian who can't talk. If it can talk, I really want to ask it what I did wrong and why you did this to me. But even if I am full of grievances, I still warn myself that I can't give up easily.
I studied carefully again, looking for the reason, and finally found the reason, which is the problem of water temperature. It turns out that the growth of bowl lotus needs warm water, so I put hot water in that flowerpot, and finally it was finished, and I was exhausted.
I began to complain with my friends on WeChat, complaining about how my bowl lotus didn't obey me and let me down again and again. The friend asked, "What if I don't sprout this time?" Actually, to be honest, I really didn't think about what I would do if it didn't sprout.
I don't know whether it's stubbornness or paranoia. I've been looking for whether I did something wrong, but I've never doubted whether the seeds are bad, because some of the seeds of the bowl lotus don't germinate. For some reason, I always associate this bowl of lotus with myself. Every step I take reminds me of my growth. At that time, I was disobedient in high school, because my mother and I had a lot of "arguments" in study. Even the more my mother asked me to study, the less I wanted to study.
Everyone is always saying that rebellious psychology is at work, and now looking back on what happened, it is simply a prisoner of conscience. I'd rather listen to my mother than her strictness and "incomprehension". Grandma has been very kind to me since I was a child. Grandma always gives you what you want. Grandma allows me to do anything I want. This is a kind of love that I can't refuse every other life, and my mother is always nervous about it.
Whenever my mother and I have a heated argument, I cry. Grandma will always come out to help me, take me away from my mother for a while, or give me some pocket money to comfort me, or take me to eat something delicious.
In fact, I feel now that if my mother had been as gentle to me as my grandmother, I would have been obedient. For our education, the starting point of every relative is for our own good, but the methods are different and the effects are different.
I didn't mean to blame my mother, but because of the comparison of educational methods and psychology, I think grandma is better than me.
Go home and go shopping with my mother. Unconsciously, I found that my mother's sideburns had white hair. My mother has always been proud of her hair, and now it is mixed with white hair, which still affects her appearance. Seeing my mother carefully picking out what I want for me, I hate why time is so hasty in an instant. I let my mother get old before I am fully grown up. Mom looked at me stupidly and asked me what I was thinking. I said, "Mom, I suddenly feel that time flies." My mother tugged at my arm and said, "This child is stupid again. Of course, time is fast. You have grown so big. "
Looking at my mother's back, I suddenly remembered the pot of lotus I put in school. Will I have white hair and sideburns when she sprouts?
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When I got home the next day, my roommate sent me a picture of the seeds of the bowl lotus. The little seed split in half as soon as it opened its mouth, and the green bud in the middle finally came out. At that moment, I was even more excited than winning the prize in XX (although my prize was a little small ...).
I proudly showed it to my mother and grandmother. My mother and grandmother praised my strength and said that I loved flowers since I was a child, and finally I couldn't help growing them. Although my bowl lotus is not a very authentic potted plant, it is also a small life cultivated by myself. I giggled at the picture with my mobile phone, and my mother shared my joy with me. I took my mother's arm and told her the whole process of raising a bowl of lotus, and by the way, I told her my feelings.
I didn't expect my mother, who was smiling just now, to turn into cry baby in the blink of an eye, and her nose was sour when she looked at me. In the process of growing up, we did have too many misunderstandings, and even didn't want to go home to see my mother for a long time, because seeing her must have made me study and review. But now that I think about it, all the misunderstandings are my own willfulness. After all, I failed my family's expectations and my mother's love for me.
But, fortunately, I am still young. Standing in my twenties, I am complacent. This pride comes not from myself, but from people who love me. It is your love that makes me happy and makes me happy. In the days to come, I will make myself better and better and repay those who love me.
It is said that a bowl of lotus leaves is simple and it is difficult to bloom. But I am still full of confidence, because I believe it, like me, is looking forward to growth.