I have seen the summer solstice and the end of the solstice
I have tried the autumn light
I have loved the warm sunshine in winter
All of them Can't stand it?
In the past, he often heard others say that there is hope if you face the direction of the light, so he has always been sunny and laughing since he was a child. He has always been confident in himself and full of heart. And rich.
He is very positive in life and work. He never complains and always sticks to his original ideas. If he encounters any difficulties, he will analyze and study them rationally until the end. Solve it, because he always remembers, "Facing the sun, life will be full of hope."
He is very handsome, the kind of person who makes people want to have others at the first sight. Handsome, he is very tall, about 183cm. Not only does he have an outstanding appearance, but he also has a high degree of education. He graduated from Xi'an Jiaotong University. He was admitted to Xi'an Jiaotong University with a score of 689.
Maybe every sunny boy is good-looking, and the light emanating from the inside is very dazzling. Yes, he is very dazzling, and there are many girls chasing him, but he doesn't seem to like him, and he always feels that he is missing something. A little bit less, until he met "her", the girl who fascinated him.
He always felt that he was quite good, both externally and internally. .
It was a very ordinary afternoon, so ordinary that he didn't feel the passage of time. It was almost afternoon. He made an appointment with his friends to go to the restaurant. His friend hadn't arrived yet, so he sat there and played with his mobile phone for a while. He felt that he had been looking down at his mobile phone for a long time, and his neck was not very comfortable. He wanted to raise his head to relieve the fatigue of his cervical spine. He saw a beam of light, which was extremely dazzling, extremely beautiful, and breathtakingly beautiful. He could not hear any sound in his ears. His eyes only saw that figure, dazzling and dazzling. He watched her slowly walk over and sit on him. Opposite her, he was completely stunned.
Later he found out that it was a friend of his friend who came to have dinner together.
He added her on WeChat that day. We had a great time chatting, she is a very cheerful girl, loves to laugh, and has a very pretty smile.
They basically send a lot of messages every day, and he looks forward to her sending messages every day when he goes to work. He, as long as he saw her message coming, no matter what he was doing at the time, he would immediately put down everything he was doing and send her a reply first. Really, that's what he did at the time. He would send her messages every night at that time. He asked her what she was doing? How was her day? Did she take good care of herself? Did she encounter anything unhappy? She would always ask her in a very happy and playful tone. Answer him, no, she is very good.
He thinks how can there be such a nice voice in this world? Really, her voice is really nice, just the way it sounds to her. He felt warm all over his body, as if a beam of warm sunshine suddenly shone on him on a cold snowy day, heating his heart and scalding his soul. He gave her his body and soul. , he was completely defeated.
That period of time was really a different kind of life that he had not experienced in such a long time. He felt that he was so satisfied.
Her home is in Hohhot, and his home is in Shandong. They are separated by thousands of mountains and rivers. Every day, he uses his mobile phone to tell his thoughts and attachments to her.
However, his love did not last long. She knew that he liked her, but there were too many barriers between them. At that time, he had no way to go to her city, just as she did not want to come to his. same city.
She has a very independent character and is very independent. She said: "Since we can't live in the same city, let's stop contacting each other. Let's not waste each other's time and live our own lives."
What she said was absolute, and what she did was straightforward. She deleted all his contact information, blocked all his WeChat calls, and completely disappeared from his world.
"He misses her"
Missing her from the depths of his soul, he really missed her so much, really. He didn't delete any of the chat records between her and him, including the voices. He listened to it over and over again and read it over and over again. He wanted to use these to ease his missing for her, but why did the more he read it, the sadder he became, and the more he wanted to cry. , until he burst into tears at the end. When he saw the text she sent, he thought of her expression when she sent this sentence. The corners of her mouth raised when she was happy, her happy face when her fingers typed these words on the screen, and her playful tone when she spoke. With the dull tone and the tone far away from the screen, he could almost imagine her scene at that time. It was so real and yet so unreal. He didn't dare to reach out and touch it. He was really afraid of being broken. He was really afraid. , he misses her so much, what should he do? He knew that he was going crazy, he loved her, he loved her hopelessly, even if he immediately exchanged his life to see her, as long as he could see her, he would not regret it, really, really.
"He's going crazy"
As long as he has a little free time, she will naturally come into his mind and torture him so blatantly. Her shadow was in his heart and mind, she was like air, pervasive, and the torment made him really go crazy.
He spent a long time dreaming, because it was so painful when he woke up from the dream.
He would often dream about her when he went to bed at night, dreaming that she suddenly contacted him and he was going to see her, and they were happily together.
Sometimes he would dream of her working hard and living hard by herself, and he felt so sorry for her. He wanted to protect her from wind and rain, wanted to charge into battle for her, and wanted to solve problems for her. All the difficulties in her life.
Every time he woke up crying in the end, every time he woke up crying in the middle of the night, he would curl himself up in the bed, hugging himself and feeling sad, enduring every minute. Waiting for time, waiting for dawn.
The pain of thinking about her all the time in the middle of the night, the pain that goes deep into the bone marrow, seems so heavy every dark night. He only has himself, and he wants everything by himself. After enduring, he finally understood the meaning of "torture", that is, even though he knew he was on the fire, he could not get down. He had to wait until the painful fire burned his skin and incinerated his bones, taking him with him. All his internal organs were bruised and turned into ashes. He couldn't do anything. He could only endure it, he could only suffer it, day after day, night after night. He really missed her.
He even had a cruel fantasy that if one day she was disfigured or she was lying motionless on the bed, he would still love her as before and he would treat her twice as well. Cherish her, as long as it's her, as long as she can come back, he doesn't care about anything. As long as it's her, really, he will hold on to her for the rest of his life, never let go, and will never let go of a finger, without her. It was so painful, he missed her so much.
Every time his mobile phone notified him that there was a message coming, he would check it immediately. He imagined whether it was a message from her suddenly, whether she had figured it out and contacted her suddenly. He raised the volume of his phone's alerts to the maximum. He was afraid that if she wanted to find him one day, he could reply immediately. What if? ? He thought she was going crazy, really, she was going crazy.
He often worries that she is alone and has no one to take care of her. What if she doesn’t have an umbrella when it rains? Did you wear warm clothes when it was cold? She was already thin. When she was at home alone, she had to eat less takeout and more fruit. He was really worried about her. She was working hard outside alone. He was really worried about her. He really wants to be with her, and he is willing to help her bear any storm.
How would he live without her? . . . . .
When he was in college, there was a boy in his dormitory who liked a girl very much. For her, he even gave up his dignity. He even laughed at him and said: "I will never be like you in the future. Ruining myself like this for a girl." Now that I think about it, I really agree with the old saying, "Feng Shui takes turns", don't underestimate anything easily.
He now feels that he is not as good as his roommate. At least his roommate can do something for that girl, but now he doesn't even have the power to stay with her, nor can he help her. No matter what, he could only think of her silently in his heart, miss her, remember him, and live by those memories.
When he looked up at the sky, he would always ask God why he was tortured like this. He had never been in love before, so why did he have to be tortured like this for the first time in his life when he truly loved someone? Painful, he was really sad. Don’t they all say that first love is the most beautiful? Why was it so painful to come to him? His heart hurt so much. He bent down and hugged himself, letting the tears flow down. He missed her so much.
In the past, he was very sunny and unrestrained, and his daily work and life were very fulfilling. But since having her, he feels that his life has changed, and he has to keep himself very busy every day. , there is no free time at all, even before going to bed at night, he has to make himself very tired, so that he can fall asleep in bed once in a while. A lot of the time, he has to think about her for a long time, until his body is exhausted. You can only fall asleep when you reach your limit. Despite this, he still hopes to have her in his dreams, even if he is allowed to see her from a distance, he will be satisfied. He missed her so much.
People say that time is the best medicine, it can heal all wounds and take away all memories. Why doesn’t it work for him? He feels that his love for her is like wine, It became stronger and stronger as time went by, and his love for her became more intense as time went by. He was completely drunk on her glass of wine, and he was willing to do so without any complaints. It's just that he misses her too much now.
He was crying all the time when he told me this paragraph. As the saying goes: "A man doesn't shed tears easily, just because he hasn't reached the sad point yet!", I heard him every time because he was too sad. There was no sound at the end, and he suddenly took a deep breath and continued to tell me about the pain. He really missed her. He said: "No matter what happens in the future, as long as she doesn't get married, I will always wait for her." , now as long as she can send me a message, even if she only allows me to make a call or send a message to her, I will definitely abandon everything here and go to her without hesitation, even if I stay with her quietly, Even if you can let me see her from a distance, it would be great!"
When he finally said the word "ah", his whole mood almost collapsed, and he was filled with that strong powerlessness. He was surrounded by feelings and couldn't break away. He missed her and couldn't do anything. He thought she was going crazy.
When he finished saying this, I said: "Thank you for your hard work." ", he said: "I am not afraid of hardship at all. As long as I can see her, as long as she can appear again, I will do anything you ask me to do."
Later he told me that they had only known each other for half a year. They had been together for less than a month.
His love for her may have been destined in his previous life.
It took less than a month for her to leave him. The "favorite" of my life, and he is willing to do so without any hesitation.
I want to say, "Don't hold hands when you can hug each other, and try not to let go when you can love each other."
Buddha. Said: "It takes five hundred times of looking back in the past life to get one pass in this life. "Please cherish each other and what you have.
If this article is fortunate enough to be seen by that girl, I want to say: "In this vast universe, you and he are two unique people. It is not easy for two souls to meet in this mortal world. If possible, I hope you can give this boy a chance, even if you are just fulfilling one of his wishes.
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Finally, the boy gave the girl a poem:
Who held my hand and restrained my madness for half my life;
Who kissed me Her eyes covered my wandering for half my life;
Who caressed my face and soothed my sorrow for half my life;
Who took my heart and melted my frost for half my life;
Who holds my shoulders and drives me away from silence all my life?
Who calls my heart and covers my life's ruins?
Who abandons me and leaves me behind. I am alone in my life;
Who can understand my intention and make me have no regrets in this life;
Who can help me and be unparalleled in my life;
Who can pour out my heart, an inch of earth is like a hollow;
Who can bury my sorrow, laugh at the vain world, and make my heart crazy?
Cover my lips and dispel my madness. I was homeless in my previous life;
Yi, take me into your arms and eliminate the frivolity of my previous life.
I will hold your hand and accept everything you have in this life;
I, Caressing your beautiful neck, I will protect you from the wind and rain in this life.
I hold my son's green hair, holding my son's love for a lifetime;
I hold my son's hand, and I will love you for a lifetime;
Zeng, in the name of my father, I will save you from sorrow in your life;
Zeng, out of pity for your son, I wish you a safe life!