I feel that I have never been a pessimistic person. When I was in high school, I was almost expelled from my personal habits, and I still enjoyed it. Near the municipal mock exam, the results are high and low, and there is no wave in my heart. Because when I was in high school, it was a coincidence that I had an indissoluble bond with the book. At that time, the best memories often stayed in lazy afternoons, or lazy afternoons and other Chinese classes. I picked up the "idle books" in my teacher's eyes. In the class of exam-oriented education, I have to say that it is really ironic. With the passage of time and the increase of reading, I feel that my mood has also changed a lot. What is clear is that I always see through issues related to people's hearts, such as friends betraying and couples breaking up. In addition to borrowing the wisdom of my predecessors, I will occasionally boast that I am a psychological counselor and be a trash can for my soul to help my classmates get out of trouble and relax. I often comfort others, but this time, I met a problem that made me extremely angry and puzzled.
I have lived in the countryside since I was a child. It is a quiet and backward place with all the countryside, but it is not a simple place with all the countryside. The village is like a sea with frequent accidents. On the surface, it is calm, but in fact it is surging. Because the education level is not high, basically most children make a living after graduating from junior high school. Foxconn, scattered all over the country, has become an ordinary worker on the assembly line. Occasionally, there will be a college student every two or three years. Having a college student is like watching a group of people playing mahjong outside the stadium, addicted to their eyes instead of their hearts. There are always a few people in the same village who are lazy at home all day. All year round, they are no different from pigs except that they can't kill and eat. They wander around the village all day, go home for dinner, and get together to play poker or gossip during lunch. They are like paparazzi in the country, hiding in the deepest news. The client may not know. They have made the news all over the city. Such a group of people often bring a few small children at home. In a few years, we will change this group of children into a new definition, called "left-behind children". Lacking the perceptual education given by maternal love, the rational understanding given by father love and the obedient side, these dolls did not inherit the gentleness that children of this age should have, but grew steadily and morbidly towards boring goals.
Because when I was young, I was the youngest in that generation, which naturally made me the worst bullied. I often go fishing together. I think I caught a lot, but when I came home, the number of fish barrels made of milk powder cans never exceeded single digits, which made me wonder if there was something wrong with the math my teacher taught me. Play with them in mud, and when I get home, mud sticks to my clothes and face, just like coal stuck to miners who have been digging coal for decades. The only thing that can still see the specific shape is my eyes, but it is only a piece of yellow flowers. Playing cards was quite popular at that time, but I still don't understand why they never bought more cards than I always bought. How many cards are left? If you spend a lot of money, you will get three more points. These three points are not three points of water and seven points of dust, but three points of moonlight on earth.
When I was a child, the sky was always blue, the clouds were always high in the sky, the wind was like a gentle horse, and even the cicadas in summer, I could feel that it was nature. It fell from the sky anyway. Call it nature. But soon, at school age, school life will eventually be good and bad. Fortunately, when I am older, I won't be the focus of bullying, and sometimes I can even see them being bullied, even though I can only laugh behind my back and don't tell anyone. The bad thing is that there is a lot less free time, so I can't go outside to chase butterflies, pick persimmons from trees and fight for water in the river at any time. In this way, days wander around. In a blink of an eye, I finished primary school, junior high school and senior high school, so that the tradition in the village continued, because I went to college two years ago and it was also my childhood. Later, I went to college in high school and basically didn't go home for many days, and I didn't have much contact with the people in the village. But this time when I went home for the New Year, my hometown also showed me something that was not dark, but it was hard for me to accept.
I have a little boy named Senyu, who is three years older than me. After graduating from junior high school, he went to work to make a living. As a newcomer to the university, he has tasted the ups and downs of life. He is two years old and one is three years old. One day at the end of high school summer vacation, he came to see me, euphemistically called a visit, but it was just a superficial greeting and then there was no other meaning. It turns out that his sister-in-law's child is going to high school. In order not to waste time and make good use of holiday time, they came to me and borrowed some textbooks for Grade One. I kept most of the books I grew up with, because I couldn't buy a few dollars, so I found several big boxes and put them all together. A few years later, they quickly piled up into a wall. However, this does not mean that territorial integrity can be achieved in this way, just as the Qing Dynasty was still torn apart despite its government. People often come to borrow books from me. I think old books can be reused by others and will die out in their lifetime. Naturally, people who come to borrow books come to me. I bought his favor and let him sell it when I needed it since I was a child. No, I went home for the Spring Festival this year, and my brother went to the fourth grade of primary school. Thanks to the light of quality education, he finally reached the grassroots level. Township leaders issued a notice to cancel winter vacation homework's practice of ordering homework and change it to preview next semester. The wind and water turn, so does returning the favor, and so does asking for help. It can be seen that life is always inevitable, and we still have to ask others for something. Senyu has a younger sister named Senran. As a girl who has been spoiled since childhood, of course, the way of doing things is not expected by ordinary people, just like the finale of teachers in various subjects before the college entrance examination, and even the questions are not found, they are finally taken. My brother went to his house to borrow books from his sister because of his need. Unexpectedly, she just entered the fifth grade and said she had no books since the fourth grade. After all, it's for people. Even if people pretend to be blind, we can only pretend to be deaf and dumb, so we have to leave passively. But I can only reorder some books for my brother online.
From this point of view, my own books are just like the grain and grass provided by the state to the victims, just a drop in the ocean. The country saved people's lives. When Yuan Longping fed them, they were full and did some boring things. Therefore, it is not without reason that Yan Hui came from humble origins and became Confucius' favorite disciple. Hunger seems to help people use their brains correctly. It is said that the child's first teacher was his parents, but in my eyes, the parents of that family are still more open and honest, not so petty. But why children can be so "sophisticated" and so old-fashioned, I don't understand now. It may be caused by environment or congenital factors, at least it shows that the theory of good nature is unreliable. There is another child in my village. He should have been ten years old five years ago, but now he must still be ten years old. I watched him grow up, and finally I watched him go. I vaguely remember that once we chased a squirrel, and the squirrel jumped up and down in fear. Finally, we chased him exhausted. The child cried with a "wow" after seeing it. We didn't fully understand what was going on, only heard "You give me the squirrel, I want it". Everyone's selfishness will never be shown, but what he says will more or less reveal his selfish and stubborn nature. Children don't know if they are outstanding representatives of the theory of evil nature, but it must be caused by family factors. His mother is famous for bullying others in the village. She is not bad-looking, has a low education level and graduated from the second grade of primary school. When she first married in our village, she was quite virtuous, but after having two children, her temperament changed greatly. She became the head of the family, mastered the financial power, controlled the purchase of goods, and the power covered the sky with her left hand. She didn't deliberately teach her children to be selfish, but selfishness, like a notch, was deeply engraved in the child's character, indulged by the stars at home, watered by childhood doting, and her naturally fierce nature slowly emerged. This ordinary village woman who has been trapped in a small rural area all her life may not know that the outside world is sinister, and she will not think about her children's future. All she wants is to love her children in her own way. This is love, abnormal love. When love crosses the line, the devil in the abyss is waiting for an opportunity. Children who are not well educated at home will be re-educated by society one day. Newborn calves are not afraid of tigers, but a kind of ignorance, and the price of stupidity can only be extinction. But she won't consider it because the child left five years ago. Cause: gastric cancer.