Sometimes I want to write a lot, but when I really start writing, I find that keeping a diary is also a torment. Just writing at the right time doesn't mean anything.
When the whole world can't see me, I can still clearly distinguish the whole world, but it has gradually blurred.
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When the cars in the street sped past me one after another, I was still counting the RMB and thinking about how to live in the future.
When the tall buildings in the city buried my figure, I could only look up and silently wave to her, and then turn around and leave.
When the bus of the social flag drove out of the boundary of the social flag, I could only look up at the social flag and then turn around and leave. Swear that I will never set foot on the border of social flags again. Of course, perhaps, this is an angry remark.
When everyone is alive, I can only squint, but I don't take away any obscenity.
When the Great Wall in Wan Li is no longer long, even if the summit is beautiful, I find my feet are still so short.
So I came back and quietly came to this provincial capital of Henan Province, which was living in reality and lying in the dark.
The past will always pass, whether it is beautiful or not, the past will always be forgotten, as if it was yesterday that everything had disappeared. No wonder people always say that memories hurt people and make them cry, which makes sadness dye the whole subtitle of my dictionary.
I can only feel sorry for the past. If I can't regret it, then don't regret it again. Let her go with the wind-
I never deny that people have the highest self-esteem when they are alive, especially men. No one wants to watch the years go by and find that they still have nothing. Seeing that the world is booming, we are still stupidly buried at the bottom of reality.
Life is always giving people pressure, but the reality is too realistic, and the days have passed like years. We are no longer young. Please take off that young, frivolous and cruel. In fact, fate has dug up many bumps in front of the road, and when you are not paying attention, it secretly gets you into trouble. If your endurance is poor, you can only worry.
I always sigh that life is like a bubble, it will break if it can't stand external pressure, and it will break if it can't stand external pressure, and it won't leave any trace after it breaks. Some things will never change, so I dare not imagine the meaning of living.
In this black-and-white society, I always thought that crows in the sky were the blackest at first. I didn't expect those things on the ground to be outdone. Still lofty, not muddy, authentic, not a trace of black. However, I didn't expect that the so-called white will always turn yellow, and I don't know if yellow will turn black. Therefore, the clear is turbid with it, and the turbid is arbitrarily turbid. Living in this so-called prosperous dynasty may be possible but not necessarily a so-called good life.
Living in this trend of the law of the jungle, everyone knows that people should learn to be strong, but in fact, people don't know that if you are strong, you won't be bullied by others, otherwise you will be a lamb who is abused and ravaged by wolves, making your life worse than death. Although there are strong people; However, few people are crazy and not proud. I only admit that it is best to show my incompetence.
Another July has come, and I am still walking in the tunnel of life. ...
Yes! Cool thin in summer can't reduce the heat of the weather. Love in the city is like fallen leaves. Fall down. Dye all of my heart. I don't know where it came from, but the tune of "The Agreement of Dandelion" is refracted in the soft and gloomy light, and slowly turns into the ear, which makes the dull days slow down the sad breath and makes people breathless.
The unpredictable life sometimes makes people feel at a loss, sleeping at home during the day and at night. Work and live in black and white upside down. At night, sit in front of the computer. Sorting out some miscellaneous data, sometimes it's noisy in my head, which makes people feel trance, and sometimes it's very tiring. Just lie on the table for a while, Mimi. Sometimes my thoughts wander unconsciously, thinking about the bright future, or thinking about everything that happened a few days ago. I don't know. All I know is that there is a knot in my heart. I can't get over it. Come on, don't pretend. It's not that I'm too lazy to pay attention to whether my thoughts will move forward. I just let him degenerate, degenerate and afraid of sprouting. The vague ideas make people feel inexplicable and strange, and people gradually feel that. ...
How many articles wander among familiar strangers, and how many times have they passed by in the crowd? Who says that flowers are similar year after year, people are different year after year, flowers fall, leaves are yellow, but the fruit is good? And people? It's been half a year, everything that has happened. It is a long learning, and when I look back, I can't help but don't want to think about it. Well, I don't have to think about it. I'm afraid there's nothing worth thinking about. What's the difference between self-mockery?
At night. The streets are full of traffic and the city is brightly lit. This road is the most terrible road. The night buried your figure. Walking through the bright street lights, you can't see the traces of walking, which makes people feel sad.
In this way, sometimes many things slowly make you lose your confidence in persistence, and some words from others tear all your persistence and dreams to pieces. Because. The initiative is always in the hands of others. You have no choice but to listen and slowly digest what hurts you. No one will sympathize with you. No one explained whether it was right or wrong.
Therefore, there will always be people who start to reflect gradually, try to find the answer and understand why they are here. What I have been hoping to see will never disappoint people, and people finally have a conscience. I never doubt that people can help themselves, and people can help themselves. Just as Kuafu saw the sun, the moth found the fire source, fortunately, life is no longer lost.
Finally, there are always people who are quiet and self-cultivation, frugal and self-cultivation, diligent and enterprising, insist on their own waywardness, and let their hearts grow beautiful slowly. Beauty is like a budding bud, covered with delicate fragrance and dew, which makes people ashamed to smell it twice, intoxicating and charming.
People are always there, their hearts are dull, and they have seen it all, and they no longer care about the troubles in the world. Let go, let go of the distractions in the world, don't say sadness, don't hurt the joys and sorrows in the world, and the most important thing is to laugh it off. Who else is afraid of loneliness?
There are always some people, such as the peony in Luoyang in those days, who look extraordinary and somewhat colorful; Like Zhengzhou Haitang, the flowers are chic and colorful, giving people an unspeakable taste of life, which is actually very simple.
It's the end of July again, but I didn't expect it ...
What will I be unable or able to achieve? ,,,,,,,,,,.
About eating
As the saying goes, "Food is the most important thing for the people", that is to say, the importance of eating is the same. As the saying goes, "people are iron rice steel, and they are hungry without eating a meal." What they say is that "eating" is not only important, but also three meals a day. "Book of Rites" says: "The ceremony begins with all kinds of food and drink". There is hardly a page in the Three Rites that does not mention the food and wine in the sacrifice.
Eating is very particular, which embodies the "ceremony". The inheritance of this "ritual" has gradually evolved into some custom taboos about eating.
On the taboo custom of eating feng shui;
Don't knock on the bowl with chopsticks. According to the old custom, beggars knock on empty bowls and beg from door to door. Therefore, children are taught from an early age not to knock on bowls with chopsticks before or during meals, otherwise they will be severely reprimanded by their elders, especially adults.
Avoid lifting the bowl palm. The posture of holding the bowl is very particular. You can't put all five fingers at the bottom of the bowl, palms up. Because beggars beg in this way, serving bowls is considered taboo.
Avoid inserting chopsticks vertically into rice. In ancient times, it was considered unlucky to put chopsticks directly into rice when offering sacrifices to the dead. Therefore, when people eat, it is taboo to put chopsticks vertically in the rice.
Avoid putting chopsticks on both sides of the cup. A pair of chopsticks should be placed on the same side of the bowl and cup, but not at the same time. Otherwise, it is considered unlucky and has the homonym of "parting quickly", which is not conducive to family feelings.
Avoid distractions while eating. Nowadays, people often watch TV, read books and chat while eating. In the past, eating was a very serious matter. There used to be a saying that "you don't talk when you eat", and you should avoid being distracted when you eat, such as eating while looking in the mirror, working while eating, and playing while eating. This is considered as disrespect for food.
Avoid saying unlucky things while eating. It is also forbidden to say unlucky things when eating, so it is forbidden to mention injuries, deaths, diseases, disasters, disasters and other fierce things when eating.
Avoid lying still after meals. It is best to have activities after a meal, so there is a saying that "you can live 99 if you walk a hundred steps after a meal", so it is forbidden to lie still after a meal, so there is a saying that "you must get sick if you don't move after a meal".
Avoid bathing and shaving after meals. There are folk sayings such as "Don't take a bath when you are full, don't shave your head when you are drunk" and "Don't shave your head when you are full". So don't take a shower or shave your head after dinner.
Avoid leftovers when eating. As the saying goes, "A child who leaves the bottom of the bowl will marry a hemp daughter-in-law when he grows up", "If he doesn't have enough to eat, he will get sores", and he thinks that "practicing grain will be struck by lightning". Therefore, adults have asked their children not to eat leftovers since childhood, and eat as much as they can. If children eat leftovers, adults should also eat them. If adults leave leftovers, people will think that family education is not good and they have not been educated well since childhood.
Taboos for entertaining guests. When eating, the host should personally help the guests with food and toast to show respect for the guests. Avoid turning the spoon out when serving. In the past, there were two statements about this taboo. One is to turn out the spoon only when giving food to the prisoners in the cell, and the other is to avoid the outflow of money and water. The host should avoid leaving early, and the host should always sit with him during the banquet to avoid the guests from eating uncomfortable; Don't take away empty dishes before eating, don't wipe the table and sweep the floor, and don't take away empty bowls and dishes when eating. Taboo seats do not wipe the table and sweep the floor. Folklore believes that this is a move to "drive away the guests"; When entertaining guests, avoid pointing the mouth of teapot and hip flask at people.
Avoid sending jiaozi to guests at the first meal. As the saying goes, "Send guests to jiaozi, Fujian, and welcome guests." Therefore, when guests come to Shandong, they should avoid eating jiaozi for the first meal, so as not to make them feel unwelcome. This is to drive them away.
Dietary taboos when visiting. There are also many taboos in manners and etiquette when going to other people's homes for dinner, so we must pay attention to them so as not to bring embarrassment and bad luck to both sides. When eating, don't take off your clothes or loosen your belt, don't talk about the bad food, don't stand up to pick up distant dishes, don't eat empty plates, don't ask for more food, and don't turn the fish over when eating fish. The so-called "guests don't turn over the fish." Avoid leaving without saying goodbye and so on.
Obviously, eating is also an art!
The pond is full of water.
It rained all night, and the frog jumped into my low hut. Quack, croak, I fell on a few messy boxes to write poems! Stop fooling around and write a few lines and build a brick wall on the first floor, okay? Sparrows praise the baptized dawn with dancing songs. The chicks who just learned to fly are clumsy in the slow wind chimes, and the rhythm of their limbs represents a brand-new and joyful respect and praise for nature! Climb the winding path covered with green grass and walk into the green pond half an acre square! Pull open the cattail and Polygonum hydropiper that block your eyes, and fold up the reeds that were blown in your childhood. I'm so scared, some damselflies are taking a nap. The red dragonfly bravely touched my hair, but the fingers could not touch the agility and lightness!
The pond is full of water, Xiao He stretches, all kinds of aquatic plants are full, and waterfowl are crowded! In the fresh air, there are not only the lingering rain and the fragrance of light blue flowers, but also the faint smell of green grass and water hyacinth! One? Float down and catch fish and shrimp between Myriophyllum and black algae! I picked a four-leaf clover and put it in my mouth. It was sour, as if I had seen a game I played with my partner when I was a child! Wild ducks beat the clear water, and a blue-eared kingfisher flew by the hollow lotus seeds.
I love Hedyotis diffusa and dewdrops on Potamogeton, which are changing their brilliance in the soft morning sun; I love little crake and night heron, and the monotonous voice is also a beautiful enjoyment! Close your eyes and imagine that I am merganser or crabgrass. ...
Primitive homesickness
Once, my homesickness was a blue sky.
Like the boundless sea, endless.
Once, my' homesickness' was a long lake, like an emerald flawless mirror, reflecting the clear reflection of the mountain peak.
Once upon a time, my homesickness was a fertile soil, as thick as a mountain.
A thousand layers of soil represent the heart of a thousand layers of jungle.
Once, my homesickness was a trickle, like my mother's milk, which has been flowing silently in my heart.
I don't know when, in the dark night, the sawtooth of the claw extended to the tree rings. When you are a greedy beast, show your ferocious face. When people are stupid and ignorant, they start to ask for it crazily. After years of hard work, there are not many green hairs on our foreheads in the big forest that raised us. When the wind blows dark clouds and yellow sand. The riverbed dried up and nothing grew. When the field is dry, it is hungry. When flash floods and mudslides swept through my village. My pure homesickness became filthy.
I am depressed, helpless and angry. I even bite my teeth and my lower lip bleeds.
I despise. I despise the humanity of wolves in human skin, and I despise the homesickness of all wolves without humanity.
I despise those wolves in nature even more. They ate a bone and ran away.
I despised the nature of those wolves even more, and then I picked up a rotten bone.
And I will never let my homesickness, like a ticket stub, tear it apart and start a dusty journey.
I want to use my industrious and intelligent hands, in Shan Ye, on the barren slope, there is only one truth in my heart.
Plant a sun tree and grow my original homesickness painted with apple green.
Micro-quotations
A bottle of drink is only a few dollars in a stall, and it will be twice as expensive in a shopping mall or a star-rated hotel, so where a person lives is very important.
A name lock is worthless without a key, so cooperation can double the value of people.
A brand of clothes, out of date, has to be painfully discounted, so it is very important to update knowledge.
A pair of shoes can only be sold if they fit and are satisfied, so communication between people is very important.
A fashionable dress will be out of date if it is hung in the cupboard for a long time, so you should sell yourself in time.
Day 32
I have forgotten how to cry. I just want to lose my memory. This relationship was wrong from the beginning, but I didn't give up. I put down my dignity. Personality. Stubborn. But I can't let you go. It's a pity that I can't walk into your world. It's a pity that I will never get you. It's a pity that my heart has been broken more than a thousand times and you have no feelings. How can this love be complete? I have been thinking, maybe, nothing is the happiest, because, in that case, I don't have to worry about losing anything. I was once, and I don't want to go back. I thought I would never see those sorrows again if I closed my eyes, but why? If I can, I want to build a castle with my love, hide you in it and protect a sad child. I stood there, watching you go further and further with my happiness until I disappeared. ...
sugarcane
As soon as autumn turned, the vendors in Haicheng street food market began to sell sugar cane in batches before they took off. Although it is also available in the north at this time, it is not as crazy as it is sold in the south. And people here are also very concerned about the business of selling sugar cane. It is common for people to buy sugar cane in bundles and go home. And I came to the south, and I dare not show weakness. I saw a peddler pulling a car full of sugar cane at the church gate. I took care of his business unceremoniously. I bought five thick and long sugar cane at once, washed it at home, peeled it off and chewed it sweet!
Eating and eating, I couldn't help thinking of the crutches when I was a child. ...
That is, about five or six years old. At that time, the living standard of the whole people was very low. If you can eat a cane in the northern countryside, it belongs to the children of rich families. My father works in the county, and he "eats commodity grain". Compared with other people in the village, we can often eat white-flour steamed bread made by my father in the factory and pickles sold outside, which were all luxuries in life at that time.
Occasionally, when the father has a job, he will buy some things that children like to eat, such as sugar cane and candy. These are all things we show off in front of other children!
That weekend, my father rode his bike home for more than 60 miles. Dad didn't push the car directly into the yard, but put it outside. He walked home first. When he got home, he excitedly said to me, "Zhuo Ma, why don't you go and see what's in my car?"
I'm glad to go outside and have a look-there's nothing! Disappointed, I ran back to tell my father that he didn't believe me, thought I was too young to see clearly, and asked me to go out and look for it. After searching again, I found nothing. Finally, my sister, who is four years older than me, came back and asked her to go out with me, but there was nothing!
Dad didn't want to go outside with mom and us. Sure enough, the back of the bike was empty and there was nothing. Dad thinks I'm greedy and hiding things, but looking at my puzzled look, I have to admit that I really lost things!
Later, I learned that my father bought a long cane and wanted to give my sister and me a "surprise", but the result was "disappointment"!
Since then, for a long time, whenever mom and dad lie down to get ready for sleep or chat in their leisure time, they will talk about a question: "Who took that crutch?" It was still there when it was put in the car. How can it be gone in a blink of an eye? " Mother said, "I may have lost it on the way!" " "Dad said," No way, it was still there when I left the car! " "And every time I hear it, my mouth is watering. My father seldom buys a whole cane. If that cane were here, my sister and I would definitely have a good meal!
I don't know how long it took to say this, but it seems like a year, two years and three years in my mind. Inadvertently learned that sugar cane was seen by my grandmother and one of his grandsons, so my grandmother secretly gave it to that grandchild, because my grandmother never liked my mother who gave birth to two daughters and these two granddaughters, although my father, the only son who "eats commodity grain", was very filial and often ignored it.
After this incident, my father seldom paid my grandmother a salary, because my mother said, "It's not that we won't give that long cane to your other grandchildren, but we shouldn't take it all without giving it to my daughter!" " Dad will never listen to grandma again!
Thirty years later, after eating this sweet sugarcane, it seems that I can still feel my parents' deep love for my daughter!