I don’t know what people who have watched "The Life of the Disliked Matsuko" feel.
Being moved by innocence and perseverance and never giving up, or lamenting the unpredictable tricks of fate, are all clichés.
Most of the people who talk about Dazai's suicide and psychotic personality disorder are non-psychology majors pretending to be experts - how can we talk about abnormality if we can't give "normal" a strict academic definition? ? Not being crazy is just another form of madness. You cannot confine aliens to confirm your sanity.
I am afraid that the most direct feeling of most people is that every life choice of Songzi is wrong. Maslow said that people have five basic needs: survival needs, safety needs, love needs, respect needs, and self-actualization needs. Songzi has been trapped in "love needs" throughout his life, and his survival needs can be compressed to the minimum. Safety can be ignored, and Songzi doesn't care much about respect and self-realization. Everything is out of balance because of love.
As for the "need for love", Songzi is not too worried about asking for love, but more frustrated about not being able to give out a huge amount of love. Throughout, there are three sentences from Song Zi: 1. Why. 2. My life is over. 3. I am sorry to be born.
Why can't my father give me some of his love for my sister? Why did I just want to make peace with the student money-stealing incident and suffered all kinds of grievances, and finally ended up losing my job? Why was I so devoted to Yaonagawa but was abused by him? Why did I lose to Okaya's mediocre and ugly wife? When Songzi yells "why", she is not looking for the reason why things have gone bad, and she has no interest in improving the current situation. Her "why" means "why!", she is just angry, and she almost never reflects.
Because she is qualified not to reflect. Guys with enough capital can lose money as much as they want without having to reflect on whether the business strategy is correct. Songzi's capital is that she has a strong ability to resist blows, and her self-healing function is like a gecko's tail and an octopus's legs. Whether it was Yaonagawa's suicide or her own murder with a knife, in any desperate situation she could resurrect with hope soon after lamenting "my life is over" - although not with full health - she had once been Blows still leave scars in life.
The continued increase in scars will also lead to a leap from quantitative accumulation to qualitative change. The last blow was when she picked up Long Yangyi after being released from prison but was knocked to the ground by him. She asked "why" again. She finally began to reflect. However, this only time of reflection destroyed her, because the conclusion she came to after reflection was : My life is meaningless. I am not worthy of being loved. Even if I give love to others, no one cares about it. This life of being rejected is really "I'm sorry for being a human being".
That’s all. How sensitive a person can be to be truly moved by such incredible persistence and tenacity? What kind of feng shui of ancestral graves would make you experience such a rare trick of fate and empathize with it and bring tears to your eyes? Rather than pretending to be emotional, it is better to give this story a more logical explanation:
If you have watched "Jigong" played by Stephen Chow, you can easily think of Songzi as the unawakened Jigong. Jigong's predecessor was Jianglong Arhat. He made a bet with the gods on whether the world could be saved. The gods agreed that the world had fallen into sin and was hopeless. However, Jianglong had to use his own strength to save the three most hopeless people. The guy: the ninth generation beggar, the ninth generation pheasant, the ninth generation evil man; for this reason, Jianglong can sacrifice his qualifications as a god, he can bear any prejudice and misunderstanding, he can even destroy his own golden body, and even if he is doomed, he still has to prove it to the gods. Saveable.
Jigong is a bit like Prometheus, and Songzi can also be a fairy who insists on trying to prove that "the world can be saved". She came to the world with full love, but accidentally forgot I have no idea what the topic I want to prove is, so I instinctively want to give love to anyone I meet. Unfortunately, everyone is narrow, fragile and conservative, and no one can withstand such a strong and pure love. The world without love is hell. Although Songzi has forgotten the topic she wants to prove, this broken life journey has irrefutably proved to her that "the world cannot be saved."
Even before she died, Matsuko did not give up hope of love. She found the business card of Aoi Mizusawa, the inmate who hired her as a stylist. She said, "I am still useful." Unfortunately, the gods who disagreed with her were tired of her. After failing again and again, they were not prepared to give her another chance. They ordered a child to beat her to death with a stick, using a cruel and ridiculous death method to emphasize once again that "the world cannot be saved." So what if Long Yangyi says Songzi is his God? Jesus was still crucified on the cross! Immortals are nothing more than being scarred and broken into pieces by the ugly world, and then they are piled up, kneaded together, and molded into statues for them to visit.
What makes us sigh and lament is not the individual fate of Songzi as a human being, but the fact that he was born as a human being and is sorry for this world that has become so degenerate that even gods cannot tolerate it. It is simply arrogant!
Otherwise, no one can explain why Songzi could only live such a miserable life of being rejected.