Late at night, I received a phone call from my best friend. There was a sob on the other end of the phone: "I don't want to be a good person anymore." When I am a good person, I get nothing. "
As scared as I am: "What's the matter, dear?"
The first month of 2020 should have been the happiest day of the year. However, the epidemic situation of longevity pneumonia in novel coronavirus swept across the country.
The people of the whole country are isolated at home, and the daily news is either the number of new cases or the number of deaths. People are extremely nervous and depressed. For the first time, they feel that death and human beings are actually only one step away.
People, when they are closest to death, can best know what they want and what is most important to them.
The protagonist and best friend of the story, Li Duo, has been an independent woman since childhood. As can be seen from the name, a young woman, who was studying and working abroad alone in her prime, met a gentleman who had a glimpse of life. From the beginning of the smile, to the climax of the promise to you and me, and finally silently took one last look at him. This relationship with no ending undoubtedly gave my best friend a fatal blow. Eight years of lush life began with love at first sight, and I dare not see you again in the last ten thousand years. After I walked with her for several years, she rejected and rejected the new opposite sex fate. Independent, she lives like a bunch of leisurely jasmine flowers, enjoying herself, not extravagant, not bowing her head. Ordinary people around us have been in love, lovelorn, married, had children and a second child, and there has never been a suitable opposite sex around her. I asked her, have you forgotten him before? She said, "It's not forgetting, it doesn't matter."
She is still an optimist in our hearts and has the same influence as a sunflower. She said: Everyone has a dark side, but she likes her positive side, which will also give her friends the most important positive strength. However, such a smiling woman told me that she was unhappy in the dead of night.
The influence of fear epidemic is a sharp and rapid blow to human body and mind. Li Duo in his early thirties is one of them. For many people who have not taken a vacation for seven or eight years, this kind of full-time isolation at home is undoubtedly unsuitable. From the initial anxiety to the middle fear, and then to the final epiphany, one day she actually told me seriously: she wants to get married, she wants to have children, she wants to do all the behaviors that life should do, she is afraid, she is lonely, she doesn't want this fear, she doesn't like it.
As a best friend who knows her best, I am surprised. For feelings, she really began to be brave. ...
After an emotional shock eight years ago, she really took the first step. I was lying in bed and suddenly sat up. It's like seeing a disabled person with legs taking the first step, the second step and the third step alone. ...
Because I am the only one who witnessed all her experiences, from being madly in love to being lovelorn to rejecting any opposite sex, she avoided meeting new people. She has completely closed her heart, which once made me think whether she likes the opposite sex or not. Now she volunteered to reopen her heart. I am ecstatic, just like seeing her child recover from a serious illness. What a lucky and happy thing it is. Only I know how brave her determination needs.
She finally took the first step bravely. I couldn't sleep that night.
I spent almost my whole life trying to find the right person for her. Finally, a high-quality man can enter my eyes. I think she will like it: gentle, restrained and low-key, which is exactly what she likes. One day after the introduction, I dreamed that they got married in the same place. It seems that the mother who hates to marry has broken her heart for her daughter.
When I thought everything could go smoothly and waited for the wedding reception with them, it all happened at the beginning of the article … ..
Feelings have no clear reason,
The end result is: Duoduo is the only man who wants to continue to develop in recent years, and says to Duoduo: I have no eyes for you.
What the hell is the eye margin? No one can say clearly, but everyone knows what it is.
I cried and said to me, "I really worked hard." I just want someone I can rely on. Why can't I always get it? I am really tired. I am disappointed in myself and feel sorry for my parents. " ...
Looking at the excellent flowers in my eyes, looking at the flowers that many people can't catch up with, I cried …
God knows how brave she needs to take this brave step. I saw a weak woman holding flowers carefully and handing them to the opposite man, but she was knocked over by one hand. ...
God knows how frustrated and disappointed a person is when he says, "I don't want to be a good person anymore, when a good person gets nothing." ...
God knows how distressed she is to secretly wipe her tears alone.
God knows how many tears I shed when I was taken care of by good people.
God knows how warm that silly child looks when he helps others.
She is the kind of person who is considerate of others.
She is the kind of person who can make others feel that the world is a little beautiful.
She is the only person I know who will use "you" to her elders and any strangers.
She is really a good person.
However, is it useful to be a good person? If it works, why can't she get what she wants?
I'm also questioning.
What kind of bastard makes so many lovers secretly sad and miserable?
But everyone can't get rid of this bastard
I think of another foreign girlfriend. After getting married a few years ago, I found her husband having an affair with other girls. The girlfriend at the other end of the video is a beautiful woman in my heart, just like a little genius in love and a funny boy. She actually drinks white wine alone abroad.
Cup after cup, the laughter of the past is gone, and the past she is gone. I teased her in a way that suits her best: "It's really a turn of the wind, and so are the boys you hurt in those years ..."
She laughed after listening.
I want to cry more. How did a good pistachio become like this? ...
Emotion is the most advantageous blade in the world, and none of us can avoid being hurt.
If you can get it, you are lucky.
If you can't get it, that's life.
The scenery in front must be more beautiful than the scenery behind.
I can't tell blossoming "be a bad guy, and all bad guys are loved", and I can't let her step into the abyss.
I want to say: nothing should be absent in life. Before that, we have to wait, be sincere, be pious and be beautiful.
God is fair to everyone. Although he didn't give you timely love, he gave you tough self-discipline, excellent quality, kind lining, a beautiful figure, different mortal tastes, a charming personality envied by sex, and a noble person who helped you at a critical time. So for the sake of love, it will not be absent, and it must be waiting in line for you.
Ok, I'll wait for your good news.