I can't stop.
Maybe obsessive-compulsive disorder
Anyway, if you don't watch it all day in one breath, you will feel uncomfortable.
This time, I finally finished reading it in one bite, but I held it all night.
I never liked Xiaohong.
After reading Long Love Road: Biography of Xiao Hong
Still don't like her very much.
Before reading this book, my impression of her only stayed in an article she wrote in the junior one Chinese textbook, Recalling Mr. Lu Xun.
Then the topic of a monthly exam is to write the author of this article.
Somehow, the answer flashed through my mind.
And then I can't remember. I almost wrote Han Hong. . .
I know better among talented women in the Republic of China.
I like Jiang Yang best.
Zhang ailing is ok
Don't like Lin
What I don't like most is Xiao Hong.
I know these so-called likes and dislikes are irrational.
In my heart
Jiang Yang is a legend in itself.
Zhang ailing's maverick, there will be no second person in the world.
Lin, I have always been very irrational to think that she killed Xu Zhimo indirectly.
Of course, I don't like Xu Zhimo.
But I like Xu Zhimo's first wife, Zhang Youyi.
Then I think Xu Zhimo and Lin caused her pain.
Then I can't understand how cruel Xu Zhimo is to abandon his pregnant wife.
Well, Wang Enjia abandoned Xiaohong, who was near production.
I don't know much anyway.
I just read some articles in The Reader.
Then I always take dislike as an excuse and seldom get to know Xu Zhimo and Lin in depth.
Besides, Xiao Hong, I always think she is very left.
I know I used the wrong word.
Her situation, why she chose the author, is clearly analyzed, or can be understood without analyzing normal people.
But to be honest, at least the author of this book is a little too protective of Xiao Hong.
Maybe now I still don't have her advanced ideas.
Her courage and the courage of love and hate are beyond the reach of human beings.
But all her actions are because of love.
I can understand, but I really can't accept it.
How can I put it? Very contradictory. I understand and admire her. Anyway, I just don't like her.
To what extent do you dislike her?
No matter how obscure the author described her feelings with Lu Xun, he even tried every excuse to clear her name.
I just believe that she is having an affair with Lu Xun.
I may have read some articles about Xu Guangping before, and criticized Xiao Hong more or less in this matter.
And I really like Xu Guangping.
This book is based on Xiao Hong's love.
Then I will comb her love.
Lu Zhenshun-No matter how vigorous love is, it can't compare with daily necessities.
To be honest, I think Lu Zhenshun is one of the most substandard love rat.
If I really meet such a person in reality, I will definitely slap him.
A man with a family.
Then Xiao Hong's yearning for free love can't be so bottomless.
Well, it can be said that Xiao Hong was still young then.
However, the bloodiest plot still appeared.
It was Xiao Hong who finally arrived in Beiping. In order to escape the engagement, she went to Beijing with Lu Zhenshun, although she was forced to cut her hair.
But when there is no financial aid,
Liu Zhenshun's refusal to her was too quick and obvious.
At that time, Lu Zhenshun always pointed out that if Xiao Hong hadn't insisted on coming to Beiping, he would have studied hard now instead of thinking about where to buy food on credit every day.
Oh, it used to be vows of eternal love, but now it's cynicism.
Really, no matter how vigorous love is, it can't compare with daily necessities.
According to the book, when Xiao Hong finally became disheartened and decided to leave Beiping for home,
Lu Zhenshun is reluctant to give up. The reason is that they fell in love at the beginning, but now they are pressured by the outside world and end up breaking up. How can I say I'm sorry for her? Now, I am a little disappointed to see her quietly packing and recalling the good old days. "Maybe so, it's good for you and me, and my family doesn't agree. You and I are not free men ... "Xiao Hong didn't speak or shed tears.
I'm sure this must be the author's own idea.
With Liu Zhenshun's face, I wouldn't believe that he would be reluctant at that time. A selfish man like him must think Xiao Hong is his burden.
It is understandable that Xiao Hong didn't cry at that time. After all, she is young and emotionally frustrated. It must be very cold.
Wang Enjia-He is a person who lives in reality. He has an advantage that Lu Zhenshun doesn't have, that is, he knows that oil, salt, sauce and vinegar need money to buy, and vows of eternal love are just a whim. (The author's comments in the book)
Wang Enjia is a warm man. The book I read didn't specify why he left the pregnant Xiaohong in the hotel and didn't come back. Most of the reasons given are guesses. In short, this is nothing more than voluntary or forced. I don't know why, but I prefer to believe that he abandoned Xiao Hong only when he was under house arrest by his family. The most unacceptable reason is that something happened to him. If so, I will hate Xiao Hong even more.
I like the plot described in the book very much.
Xiao Hong returned home after experiencing the frustration with Lu Zhenshun, and once again chose to escape marriage.
Wang Enjia, who got the news, chased her all the way and asked Xiao Hong what happened to her and why she ran away from home for three transgressions and four times.
Xiao Hong didn't feel bad for him, but felt guilty for him. If another girl marries Wang Enjia, she may live happily. But Xiao Hong is not an ordinary girl. If she is made to obey her parents' orders like a puppet, she will be covered with thorns. She is very persistent about herself. Xiao Hong calmly said to Wang Enjia, "There is nothing wrong with you. However, what I am avoiding is marriage, not you, but this marriage. "
Wang Enjia listened in a daze. He is a man who lives in reality. He has advantages that Liu Zhenshun doesn't have. He just knows that oil, salt, sauce and vinegar need money to buy, and vows of eternal love are just a whim.
Warm men are warm men after all, and Xiao Hong followed Wang Enjia back when she was moved.
Xiao Hong, who returned home, once again chose to escape marriage. This time, her father officially announced that he would break up with her.
Indeed, if Xiao Hong hadn't bravely walked out of her home by the Hulan River, resisted and fled her marriage, then she would never have reached Harbin, a big city, and of course there would be no later story. And if she is quieter, more traditional and more weak, and can live alone with her fiance in Harbin with respect, instead of clamoring for further study, then she is not worth saving by Xiaojun.
After fleeing to Harbin, Xiao Hong was hungry and cold, but she met Wang Enjia by mistake and was moved by Wang Enjia again.
Perhaps it is understandable that one has to make some compromises in order to survive. At that time, Xiao Hong chose to be with Wang Enjia at first, which was also her compromise on life.
Cute, fate is really joking. In order to escape the engagement with Wang Enjia, Xiao Hong ran away from home three times and four times, but after she escaped, Xiao Hong fell in love with her fiance.
Xiao Hong's life is really cyclical in many places, and the Wangs have also taken economic blockade. In desperation, Wang Enjia can only choose to go home and get money, and this time, Xiao Hong has never seen this fiance in her life.
According to the book, Xiao Hong doesn't seem to have any complaints or accusations about this fiancé who "abandoned the chaos". She may have accused him thousands of times in the hotel, but in later life, she lost her anger and gained more understanding. Or, at that time, Xiao Hong, who was young, didn't understand the taste of love, so that she was influenced by love and hate for the rest of her life and found this relationship boring. From escaping marriage to living with others, there are impulsive and thoughtless elements, which can be traced back to the source because she is not willing to be at the mercy of fate.
Maybe everything is really the best arrangement. Without this ending, Xiao Hong may never meet Xiao Jun. Of course, I don't know whether Xiao Hong is lucky or unlucky to meet Xiao Jun.
Xiaojun-your surname, my freshman.
In the eyes of the world, Xiao Jun is an indispensable person in Xiao Hong's life. If I hadn't met Xiao Jun, Xiao Hong might still be an ordinary person named Zhang Naiying. She may be able to survive that moment, and then live an ordinary life, so that China's literary world is missing a genius, and she herself will not have a bumpy life. Xiao Jun is a knight of Xiao Hong. I think if there is no male chauvinism in Northeast China, no subsequent domestic violence and no philandering, Xiaojun will really be a knight in the hearts of all girls. He still committed two basic things that are absolutely indispensable for a man, domestic violence and blatant philandering. As a result, Jun Xiao went further and further on the road in love rat.
I really like the scene where Jun Xiao saves Hong Xiao, and I can't get tired of watching many scams. It's really, really good.
The author writes beautifully, as described in this way.
Jun Xiao knocked on Xiaohong's window in the rain. Xiao Hong got a fright. Why did he appear on Juliet's balcony like Romeo? She got up quickly and opened the window. "Is jade-like stone, I think it's windy and rainy now, the hotel will be lax in supervision, I think this is a good time to rescue you. You leave now and leave here with me. " The floor of Xiaohong's room is not high, but it is really dangerous for a pregnant woman to climb the stairs in such bad weather. "Don't be afraid. Come with me. Don't be afraid of any mistakes. I am protecting you. " Hearing this, Xiao Hong took some clothes, climbed over the window and disappeared in the rain with Xiao Jun. Since childhood, Xiao Hong's life has been very bleak. She is lonely and helpless, and only an elderly grandfather loves her. Without spiritual maternal love and fatherly love, she is like the only small tree on a bare hillside. Small trees have free will when they grow slowly. Although she is weak, lonely and powerless, she is full of incredible courage, and she is desperate to fight against all decadent things. However, no matter what this little tree will have, she really needs sunshine and rain. For a long time, there was no sunshine or rain and dew, which made her yearn for these things more. When Xiao Hong met Xiao Jun in the lightning Shi Huo, she couldn't help falling in love with the man who seemed to give her sunshine and rain.
Although, in the end, she was entrusted to a non-human.
However, they once had a very warm and brilliant life. Moreover, in the first days, Xiaojun was wholeheartedly good for her and thought of her everywhere. He once lamented that it was a godsend opportunity for them to meet and know each other and finally come together. This marriage is all in an "accident". "If you haven't contributed to the International Association before, your help letter won't attract the attention of the editor. If you hadn't written a sincere letter for help, I wouldn't have come to you. You see, everything is accidental. " "I am very grateful for this accidental love." Xiao Hong bowed his head and said. She will never forget that day. Under the care of Jun Xiao, she stumbled up the wall of the hotel and climbed the "one-leaf boat" he brought carefully step by step. She still remembers what Xiao Jun said to her in the heavy rain: "Be careful, do you see the stone pier ahead? Take it. Yes, move down step by step. Don't be afraid. I am right here. When you slip, I will hold you ... "His voice is sometimes clear and vague, and some are completely melted in the rain. In the process, Xiaohong didn't say a word of fear, but she was so nervous that she was about to jump out of her throat. However, with Xiaojun around, she felt less afraid. They got into the boat firmly and rowed hard. Xiao Hong looked at the hotel farther and farther away, and looked at the hotel owner's dumbfounded helplessness in the blur. She smiled. Xiao Hong laughs every time she recalls here-the hotel owner never imagined that the Songhua River would burst its banks and the tenant under house arrest would escape by boat.
According to Jun Xiao's suggestion, Xiaohong sent her and Wang Enjia's children away. For a long time, they lived a life of "only hunger and cold, no youth".
However, the love between Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun can share weal and woe but can't enjoy happiness.
When life is hard, two people's hearts are crowded together, and the struggle against each other comes from the blow of fate. Whenever the situation improves, there will always be cracks between two sensitive literati. While Xiao Hong's literary creation is getting better and better, her relationship with Xiao Jun has come to an end.
Sometimes, we always rely on our love and familiarity to hurt each other and say something hurtful that we shouldn't say. Why do people always leave their smiles to strangers, but they can hurt the closest people?
Later, their state of getting along has seriously affected their normal life, and the once hard-won love is slowly disappearing.
What exactly is the right person?
Xiao Jun once visited Xiao Hong, a princess in distress like Prince Charming. He met her and she caught him. They are all unique. Why is the person who was right now the wrong person? Why once the only, will become disgusting?
Ps: I started writing on Thursday night 10, but I was interrupted and continued intermittently. 1 1 finally sleepy, I want to continue writing today, but I really can't write anymore.
Briefly talk about the leftover men involved in Xiao Hong's emotional life.
CaoHanwen
Duanmu Hongliang is an tolerant gentleman, but he is weak and sometimes even completely irresponsible.
It's really good for Xiaohong. I paid a huge price for being with Xiaohong, and only I gave Xiaohong a complete wedding.
When there is only one ticket, the pregnant Xiaohong will leave herself and run away. I don't care how the author finds reasons and how Xiao Hong insists, but this is really not what a man should do. Later, Xiao Hong was seriously ill in hospital, but he didn't come to visit for a long time for fear of the hospital atmosphere and lottery. If he comes, it's just a formality. It's really chilling to throw Xiao Hong to Luo.
But I believe he really loves Xiao Hong, a young master with a good family. He is willing to marry a woman who is older than himself, has lived with another man twice, and is pregnant with other people's children, regardless of various pressures, and even risks being rejected by the literary world at that time. After Xiao Hong's death, she remarried 18 and went to worship every year.
Luo
I'm not sure what feelings Luo has for Xiao Hong. Maybe I appreciate her guidance and help in literature, maybe I can't stand the sympathy caused by Duanmu Hongliang's cowardice and irresponsibility, maybe I regard Xiao Hong as my sister, and maybe I can't help admiring this talented woman myself.
Compared with Duanmu, Luo was very responsible at that time and was the most important support for Xiao Hong in her last days. He even gave up two opportunities to leave Hong Kong for Xiao Hong.
I admire him, or rather, I admire everyone who is responsible.
Lu Xun
As I said before, I just firmly believe that Lu Xun and Xiao Hong are having an affair.
That's really insulting.
Or these don't exist at all, but someone just made them up at will to mislead future generations.
Well, I may be the one who was misled.
I think Xiao Hong regards Lu Xun's home as a place where she can get warmth. In some ways, she is really selfish, because she really interfered in the lives of Xu Guangping and Lu Xun. For this reason alone, I really don't like her. It seems that Lu Xun is more inclined to her in dealing with her and Xu Guangping.
I know that her lack of love since childhood, coupled with the feelings with Jun Xiao at that time, entered the freezing point. For her, Lu Xun's home is the only place where she can find warmth, but her happiness can't be based on the unhappiness of others, can it?
Dei, that's it.