First, the course began to choose pictures connecting the world and heaven. I walked around the audience and picked up such a photo.
After picking it up, I feel that this picture represents the awakened wisdom and feels the guidance of God. In this way, I saw the road to awakening, and at the same time, in the face of this existence and true knowledge, I felt so powerless, and I felt that the road to growth was by no means easy, but it was like going to heaven as shown in the picture! But my mood is still happy, because I am sure that the door of heaven has been opened for me, and the way to go is clearly displayed in front of me. What I need to do is to be down-to-earth and face my life lessons seriously!
Second, face your parents and see the truth! In order to maintain the integrity of my family and the feelings of my parents, I have tried my best to save and control my parents for more than 20 years. My wife said that I am filial and that I have been living for my parents! Looking back on the first half of my life, my joys and sorrows are mainly related to my parents! The relationship with my parents is also my biggest card point! In my daily life with my parents, I blame my parents for all kinds of setbacks, and I have deep judgment and resentment towards my parents! This time, when facing my parents, when facing the father played by Jianying and the mother played by Yaxin, I suddenly felt the same stabbing pain in the left abdomen of my navel. Suddenly, I felt wronged and sad all over. When my aunt and teacher Chen guided me to encourage me to express myself to my parents, my throat seemed to be blocked by something but I couldn't speak again and again! At that time, I linked to the inner child who was at a loss, wronged and sad, frightened and desperate. 1 1 About children are constantly asked by their mothers, "What do you see? What do you see? " That child, like me at the scene, had a blocked throat, was wronged, sad and at a loss, and kept crying and crying! When I was close to my parents, I felt wronged and resentful. My father pushed me away and said angrily, "I don't need your control, just mind your own business." My mother was also very upset and angry and said to me, "Why do you always get involved in our affairs?" You're playing us like this. "What they said to me was what my parents said when they expressed their dissatisfaction with me in real life, but they never listened! At that moment, I clearly saw that I was offside when I was a child. My parents didn't want me to control their own lives. The more I controlled, the more bound I became. My parents reversed the plot without my intervention. My parents hoped that I could fulfill my wish! I saw my parents sacrifice their happiness to fulfill me! Look how arrogant I have been judging my mother for so many years! I feel that it is not easy for my mother these years. For the first time, I really began to feel sorry for my mother and understand her! I saw my father's helplessness, anger and injustice, and I saw my filial piety to my father and my revenge on him! I see that I have never grown up. I am afraid that my parents will lose their dependence after divorce. I am worried that my parents will see their entanglement and control over their parents for many years! All the above are true. This time, I really understand that parents are parents. Anyway, they have their own lives and personalities. I cannot and should not change them. In the future, I have no requirements or expectations for my parents. I will allow my parents to be themselves, accept their parents as they are and let them be themselves! I always thought that I had made up with my parents after studying in class for the past two years, and I was more and more able to claim that these were my own problems. However, after getting to know each other better, I see that I still have a lot of anger and emotions in my heart, and I haven't really reconciled with my parents yet. Thank you, Mr. Chen, for helping me clarify this point. I will continue to face my pain along this line according to the methods provided by the teacher, so that I can really support my parents in the future and let them feel my love for them!
Third, cross the birth canal and be reborn. When Gao Jian went through hardships and overcame many difficulties to cross the birth canal, I was very moved. Every soul chose to come to this world to face their lessons! In the sharing session, seeing the problems between their father and son deeply touched me. Although the problem is different, I see that if I don't wake up, reincarnation will be repeated from generation to generation! Teacher Chen's words are my greatest achievement in this course-if I don't face and finish my homework in this life, the same experience will continue in the next generation, which is reincarnation. I am number three, my father is number three, and my grandfather should be number three. I clearly see how much my father has lived in personality mode and how similar his first half is to his father. This is reincarnation! When my children are born, I hope they don't have my personality when they grow up, because I hated myself so much before, and I don't want my favorite children to be people I hate, and they happen to be the third child. Now I understand that if I don't finish my homework and live awake in this life, the cycle will continue! Seeing this, I decided to take growth as the most important thing in my life, face the lessons of life seriously, stop escaping and shrinking, and let the cycle of personality mode end on me!
Fourth, I have experienced all kinds of energy personally, and I can describe my mood with magic and submission! When I meditate in anger, I see that my tolerance for pain is so low. In the face of difficulties, my willpower is still weak. I didn't do my job well in anger meditation for three days in a row, and I evaded compromise again and again when I was a little uncomfortable. This is really a true portrayal of my daily life! In the group activities, I saw that although I can easily trust the team, I can't give it support. I have always enjoyed the support and absorbed the strength of the team. I want to give my strength and love, but I can't give it! When I get up back to back in a group of people, I will unconsciously make excuses for failure again and again. This is my current state in real work, exactly the same! Thanks to this link, I can clearly see my current status. Seeing this, I will seriously face and solve these points of the card owner and stop being a frank rogue!
Sophie's rotation, the meditation of Datura, the meditation of mysterious rose, the collective meditation and chanting, the energy of nine-figure lottery, the case of on-site lottery, the praise of six-character mantra and the summary and sharing of everyone at last, these experiences and feelings can not be described in words. Only through personal experience can we understand what the teacher said and affirm the existence of that higher wisdom! Through this life healing class, I believe and obey those principles and avenues more and more! I am grateful to Teacher Chen for his guidance and fellow initiates for their support and companionship. Every one of you is a great encouragement and support to me! Love You!