Since he saw this common epigram, he has aroused many new feelings, but at the same time he has also felt many new comforts. For example, I was angry at first when I saw the older generation bullying young people, but now I have changed my mind. In the future, when a young man has children and grandchildren, he will probably put on such airs, and there will be no injustice. For example, I was angry when I saw the soldiers beating the coachman, but now I have changed my mind. If the coachman becomes a soldier, the soldier will probably hit him like this and never take it to heart again. When he thinks like this, he sometimes suspects that he has no courage to fight against evil society, so he deliberately creates a way out, which is very close to "there is no right or wrong", and correction is far better than correction. However, this view always grows in his mind.
He said that this song "Almost" was first published in the lecture hall of Shoushan School in Beijing. At that time, he probably mentioned something about history, so he said that "ancient and modern people are not far apart" and all kinds of people are "sexually similar" (3). Finally, students and bureaucrats are involved, and he commented:
"Nowadays, fashionable people in society scold bureaucrats, and students are particularly interested. However, bureaucrats were not born into a special race, or were changed by civilians. There are many bureaucrats with student backgrounds now. What is the difference between them and the old bureaucrats? There is not much difference between elegant thoughts, speeches and actions ... even many new undertakings run by student groups have inevitably gone wrong, and most of them have been put out. Something like that But this is what China can worry about in the future ... "
Among the more than 20 listeners sitting in the lecture hall, some were disappointed or thought it was right; Some flew into a rage, probably thinking that they had insulted the sacred youth; Several people smiled at him, probably thinking that this was his defense: Fang Xuanzhuo was a bureaucrat.
But this is all wrong. This is just his new injustice; Although unfair, it is only his theory of silence. Although I don't know if it is because of laziness or uselessness, he feels that he is a person who refuses to exercise and is very quiet. The general manager blamed him for his insanity. As long as his position is unshakable, he will never speak. The teacher's salary has been in arrears for half a year. As long as there is no official salary support, he will never speak. Not only did he not speak, but when the teachers jointly asked for wages, he secretly thought that he was thoughtless and too noisy; I was a little sad until I heard Tongliao taunt them too much. Later, on second thought, maybe it was because I was short of money and other officials didn't work as teachers, so I was relieved.
Although he was short of money, he never joined the teachers' group. Everyone decided to go on strike, but he didn't go to class. The government said that "money will be paid after class", and he hated them for playing tricks on fruits. A great educator [5] said that "it is not noble for a teacher to ask for money with a schoolbag in one hand" before formally complaining to his wife.
"Hey, why are there only two sets?" After listening to the "not noble" dinner that day, he looked at the food and said.
They have no new education, and their wives have no scientific names or nicknames, so they have no names. According to the old convention, although it can also be called "madam", they don't want to be too old-fashioned, so they invented the word "hello". His wife didn't even say hello to him. According to customary law, as long as she speaks to him, he knows it is addressed to him.
"But 15% of the rice I got last month is gone ... yesterday's rice was easy to be credited." Yi stood at the table and said to him face to face.
"You see, it is also said that teaching for wages is despicable. This kind of thing seems to even people want to eat, rice to do, rice to buy such superficial things all don't know ... "
"That's right. How to buy rice without money, how to cook without rice ... "
His cheeks bulged, as if annoyed that the answer was "similar" to his argument and almost echoed from a distance; Then he turned his head to the other side. According to the common law, this is a sign that the discussion is suspended.
When it was freezing and rainy, the teachers actually got a little salary because they asked the government for unpaid wages [6], and they were killed in the mud in front of Xinhua by the national army. Fang Xuanchuo easily received the money and paid off some old debts, but he still lacked a large sum of money. This is because official wages are quite in arrears. When it is true, even honest officials gradually think that salary is indispensable, and Fang Xuanzhuo, who is also a teacher, naturally shows more sympathy for the academic community. So when everyone advocated continuing the strike, although he was still not present, he was particularly convinced to keep the public's decision.
Dragon Boat Festival
However, the government paid again and the school started. However, a few days ago, some students always submitted a letter to the government, saying that "if teachers don't attend classes, they will pay back their wages." Although it didn't work, Fang Xuanzhuo suddenly remembered what the government said before: "Money is paid only in class". The shadow of "almost" flashed before my eyes and did not disappear, so it was made public in the lecture hall.
Visible, if you exercise "almost said" in Luo Zhi, nature can be judged as a selfish injustice, but it can't be said to be an excuse for being an official. Only when he talks about these things, he often likes to talk about the future fate of China. If he is not careful, he even thinks he is a person who cares about the country. People always suffer from "self-knowledge".
However, the fact of "almost" happened again. Although the government only ignored the troublesome teachers at first, then ignored the irrelevant officials, owing and owing, and finally forced the good officials who had looked down on the teachers to ask for money, many of them became the main events of the salary meeting. Only a few daily newspapers published some contemptuous and sarcastic remarks. Fang Xuanzhuo was not surprised and didn't mind at all, because according to his "almost saying", he knew that this was because journalists were not short of embellishment. If the government or the rich stopped subsidizing, they would probably hold meetings.
He expressed sympathy for the teachers' salary demands, and naturally he also agreed with his colleagues' salary demands. But he still sat in the yamen instead of collecting debts together as usual. As for the suspicion that he is lonely, it is just a misunderstanding. He himself said that since he was born, only people asked him for debts, and he never asked anyone for debts, so this ending was "not his strong point." Moreover, he is afraid of meeting people with economic power. When they lose power, such people hold a book on Mahayana faith in their hands. When they talk about Buddhism, they are of course very "friendly", but when they are still in power, they always look lifeless and treat others as slaves, thinking that they have the right to kill you poor boys. So he didn't dare to look and didn't want to look. This kind of temper, although sometimes even I feel lonely, often suspects that it is actually incompetent.
Everyone is always getting by, but compared with before, the room is poor, so it goes without saying that even Mrs. Fang has gradually lost respect for him. As long as she disagrees with Iraq recently, she often puts forward original opinions, and some abrupt actions are understandable. Before noon on the fourth day of the fifth lunar month, Yi stuffed a pile of money in front of his nose as soon as he came back, unlike usual.
"A total of 180 dollars is enough to start ... Have you succeeded?" Yi did not dare to look at him and said.
"Hum, I won't be an official tomorrow. The check for money was received, but the representative of the demand meeting refused to sign it. At first, people who said they wouldn't go with them wouldn't send them, and later they said they would collect them in person. Today, they changed their faces with checks. I'm really afraid to see ... I don't want my money, and the official won't do it. This is unlimited servility ... "
Mrs. Fang was a little startled to see this rare indignation, but she also calmed down.
"I think it's better to get it myself. What is this? " Yi looked at his face and said.
"I'm not going! This is a formal salary, not a reward. As usual, it should be sent by the accounting department. "
"But what if you don't send it ... oh, I forgot to say it last night. The child said that the tuition has been urged several times at school, saying that if you don't pay ... "
"Nonsense! I don't pay for my work and teaching. Does it cost money for my son to read a few books? "
Yi feels that he has no scruples about the truth and seems to take it out on himself as the principal. If he talks, he will stop talking.
They had lunch in silence. He thought for a moment, and then went out in dismay.
In recent years, it is the day before the festival or the end of the year as usual. He must go home at twelve o'clock at night. As he walked, he grabbed his arm and shouted, "Hey, here it is!" " So he handed Iraq a brand-new stack of tickets, and his face was very proud. Who knows that on the fourth day, I made an exception and went home before seven o'clock. Mrs. Fang was surprised and thought he resigned, but secretly looking at his face didn't see anything particularly unlucky.
"What's the matter? ..... so early? ..... "He said.
"I can't send it, I can't get it, the bank is closed, and I have to wait for the eighth day."
"Pro collar? ..... "Yi asked.
"The pro-collar layer has also been cancelled. I heard that it was issued by the accounting department. However, the bank is closed today and will rest for three days until the morning of the eighth day. " He sat down, looked at the ground, took a sip of tea, and then slowly began to say, "fortunately, there is no problem in the yamen." You must have money around the eighth day ... it's really troublesome to borrow money from unrelated relatives and friends. In the afternoon, I crustily skin of head to find Jin Yongsheng and talked for a while. First, he praised me for not asking for salary and refused to receive it in person. This is noble, which is exactly what one should do. When I learned that I was going to ask him for 50 yuan's accommodation, it was like putting a handful of salt in his mouth. Anyone who can wrinkle his face is forced to wrinkle, saying that the rent can't be collected, how to lose money in business, and collect money in person in front of colleagues is nothing. "
Dragon Boat Festival
"Who will borrow money to save money in this emergency?" Mrs. Fang just said lightly, without any generosity.
Fang Xuanchuo bowed his head, thinking it's no wonder. Besides, he and Jin Yongsheng are very distant. Then he remembered last year's Lunar New Year, when a fellow villager came to borrow ten dollars. He has received a receipt from the yamen. Because he was afraid that the man might not pay back the money in the future, he put on an awkward look and said that since the yamen couldn't get the salary and the school wouldn't pay him, he was really "helpless" and sent him away empty-handed. Although I didn't see his face, he felt embarrassed at this time, his lips moved slightly and shook his head again.
It didn't take long, however, as if he had an epiphany, to give an order: tell the page to go out to the street at once and get a bottle of lotus white on credit. He knows that the store will pay more tomorrow, but he probably won't be afraid to take credit. He won't give credit, and he won't pay back a penny tomorrow, which is exactly what they deserve.
Lianbai came on credit. He drank two glasses and his bluish-white face turned red. After dinner, he was very happy. He lit a big hard cigarette, grabbed a trial anthology from the table, and lay in bed and read it.
"Then how to deal with things in the store tomorrow?" Mrs Fang Ran followed him, stood in front of the bed, looked at his face and said.
"the store? ..... teach them to come in the second half of the eighth day. "
"I can't say that. They don't believe or agree. "
"What don't believe. They can ask, there is no one in the whole yamen, so they have to go to the eighth day! " He drew a semicircle in the air in the tent with his second finger, and Mrs. Fang followed her finger to see a semicircle. Seeing this hand, she went to open the sample.
Mrs. Fang saw that he was arrogant and couldn't open her mouth for a while.
"I don't think this will work. I have to do something else in the future, do something else ... "Yi finally found another way and said.
"What method? I'm not like copying students, and martial arts is not like a fireman. What else do I do? "
"Didn't you write a letter for a bookstore in Shanghai?"
"Bookstore in Shanghai? You have to count the words one by one, spaces are not counted. Look at the vernacular poems I wrote there. I'm afraid they are only worth 300 yuan each. There was no news about collecting copyright tax for half a year in June. Who has patience?' Far water can't save near fire'. "
"So, give it to the newspaper here ..."
"Go to the newspaper? In this big newspaper, I rely on the kindness of a student who is an editor there. A thousand words is only this little money. Can I support you even if I stay up late? Besides, there are not many articles in my stomach. "
"So, what should I do after the holiday?"
"After the festival? -Still an official ... Tomorrow the store wants money, you just have to say the afternoon of the eighth day. "
He is going to watch the Trial Collection again. Afraid of losing the opportunity, Mrs Fang said hesitantly:
"I think, on the eighth day after the festival, we ... might as well buy a lottery ticket ⑾ ..."
"Nonsense! Will say no education ... "
At this time, he suddenly remembered what happened after being sent out by Jin Yongsheng. At that time, he walked sadly through Daoxiang Village and saw many big-character advertisements standing at the door of the store, which read "Tens of thousands of dollars won the first prize", as if remembering his own heart, or perhaps slowing down, but it seemed that he could not bear to part with the remaining 60 cents in his wallet, so he resolutely walked away. As soon as his face changed, Mrs. Fang thought he was angry that the Iraqis were uneducated, so she quickly stepped back and didn't finish. Fang Xuanzhuo didn't say that finish, just stretched out his waist and whined and read "Try Collection".
1June, 922.
□ Notes
(1) This article was first published in1September, 922, No.9, Volume XIII of Shanghai Novel Monthly.
⑵ "There is no right and wrong in the heart": See Mencius' Gongsun Chou: "There is no right and wrong in the heart, and it is inhuman."
⑶ "Sexual similarity": See The Analects of Confucius Yang Huo: "Sexual similarity is far away."
⑷ "Everything varies from place to place": See Mencius Li Lou.
5. Great educator: Fan Yuanlian. The article "The Ideal Teacher" in the No.1 14 issue of Beijing Yusi Weekly said, "Mr. Fan Jingsheng, the former director of education (according to Fan Yuanlian), also felt sorry for the teachers in various schools in Beijing, saying that they had money in one hand and a schoolbag in the other."
[6] refers to the events that happened at that time. 192 1 On June 3rd, Beijing No.8 School resigned and held a demonstration of more than 10,000 teachers and students from all schools in the city on behalf of the National Federation, demanding wages from the Beiyang warlord government headed by Xu Shichang, which was suppressed and many people were injured. The xinhua gate below, on the West Chang 'an Avenue in Beijing, used to be the gate of the presidential palace of the Beiyang warlord government.
(7) Runbi: originally refers to the remuneration for people who write poems or paint, and later it is also used as another name for remuneration.
⑻ Mahayana belief theory: the name of Buddhist scriptures. A?vagho?a Buddha of India.
(9) Ticket delivery: banknotes issued by Bank of China and Bank of Communications (both national banks at that time).
⑽ Attempt Collection:1Poems of Hu Shi's Vernacular Style published by Shanghai Yadong Library in March, 920.
⑾ Lottery: A kind of securities with gambling nature. Most of them are issued by the government, numbered and sold at a certain price, and a small part of the proceeds are raised as bonuses; Draw lots to determine the winning numbers at all levels. If the lottery number is the same as the winning number, the prize will be awarded according to the grade, and those who fail will be invalidated.