But the original text says that it may be awesome in the end, and this body is like entering the middle of a river. Not a good word.
As the previous sentence said, even if you want to appear indifferent, you will still be very unhappy after all.
The last sentence depends on your interpretation according to your own situation.
I think it's best not to force yourself to do what you want when you encounter problems. After a while, your luck will change.
But it is unlikely to find a job in the near future.