That night, I ran as usual and uploaded the data after running. My running application Yue Run Circle immediately reminded me that today is my anniversary with it, and I have been running with it for a whole year. Emma, how time flies!
In retrospect, I started running last Spring Festival. At first, it was plump, and later it was changed to running laps. So fast, I changed from a runner to a runner who ran six half marathons and 1 full marathons.
After running for more than a year, I just experienced four seasons: spring, summer, autumn and winter.
Chunsheng breaks the shell of inferiority.
By chance, I read Haruki Murakami's What I Talk about Running.
Since Haruki Murakami started his career as a professional writer in the autumn of 1982, he has started long-distance running. After nearly 30 years, from Kauai, Hawaii to Cambridge, Massachusetts, from listing in Japanese village to participating in triathlon, and then stepping on the ancient Greek marathon, he is always running.
This writer who runs at least 10 km almost every day has since successfully put "running" Amway into my heart. It's too late for me to run. This is beyond many people's understanding. In the eyes of the world, running is such a relaxed and natural thing. People should be born to run.
I'm not.
From the moment I entered school, I showed amazing inferiority in sports. I seem to be born numb to all kinds of sports, so I stubbornly carried out the sports make-up exam until graduation from the moment I entered school. Everyone else is happy to go to physical education class. They think it's relaxing and playing. Only I, a person who has never attended a class, feel nervous, because that means I have to lose face in front of all my classmates, which means I have to test the teacher's patience and make-up exams again and again.
Exercise is not as good as me, just like a scar engraved in my heart during the whole growth period. It is deeply imprinted in my heart, and it is a kind of pain that can't be touched and thought. This kind of pain, layer by layer, grew into a shell of inferiority, and I hid in it, afraid to go out.
Last Spring Festival, on a sunny afternoon, I finally got up the courage, separated my legs on the deserted road and started running. While listening to my heavy breathing, I heard the sound of the shell that I have been carrying for many years slowly breaking. At that moment, I didn't know that through running, I would meet a brand-new self.
Xia Chang watered miracles with sweat.
Later, introduced by a friend, 200 yuan attended a zero-based running training camp at his own expense.
Spending money to learn to run is a bit incomprehensible to the average person, even a bit silly. Besides, I gave the money to a complete stranger. What should I do if I am cheated?
After a little hesitation, I signed up. 200 yuan, even if I am cheated, I will admit it. To me, this running training camp is like a drowning man. I grabbed a straw in the vast sea and wouldn't let go.
It was proved that this training camp was effective for me.
First of all, it provides a scientific training plan. Yes, before that, I didn't even know that running needed planning. Seeing this same training plan as the preparation plan, I stopped running around. I no longer ask myself to run every day. Facts have proved that this is unscientific. I will practice according to the plan, step by step, and make progress little by little.
Secondly, it provides a reward and punishment mechanism. The 200 yuan paid when entering the camp is actually a deposit. After you finish your weekly running task, the coach will return some money to you in the form of a red envelope on Monday. If the task is completed, the deposit will be returned in full. In order to complete the weekly task, I am full of energy every time I run. So people are such strange animals. Obviously, the red envelope is your own money, and your heart is particularly beautiful. I think this is the so-called sense of accomplishment.
In this way, from the beginning, I, a child who was panting after running hundreds of meters, kept breaking through myself through training. Slowly, I ran 3 kilometers, 5 kilometers, 10 kilometers, creating my own little miracle until I ran the first half marathon in my life.
Autumn harvest: the possibility of inciting life with marathon
I was shocked when I successfully ran the first half marathon. I never thought I could run so far and so long as a scum runner. This is the legendary 2 1.0975 km half marathon!
For me, running a horse and a half is enough to show off all my life and brag everywhere. This life is enough. When I sent the half-horse running record to the regiment in training camp, the coach told me that you can run the whole horse.
The horse with a total distance of 42. 195 km is beyond my dreams. Encouraged by the coach and driven by the running friends in the group, I finally signed up for the Beijing Marathon. Besides, I am also very lucky. In the envious eyes of more than N people, I won the lottery and qualified for the competition.
Last summer, the coach gave me a training plan to prepare for the whole horse. Basically, after work every day, I change my clothes and go out for a run. At this time, I finally realized what the legendary "sweating" is.
Even so, facing North Malaysia, I still have no confidence, and I am very nervous. It's like taking a major exam. I have no idea. Even, I have prepared myself psychologically, thinking that if I can't, I will quit the game and never try to be brave again.
Unexpectedly, the game went very smoothly. Basically, I didn't leave except running all the way down at the supply station. It may be that I usually trained well and didn't encounter the legendary terrible wall-hitting period. Running all the way, although hard, is not difficult.
When I finally ran to the finish line and won the medal, I knew that I not only defeated myself, but also surpassed myself. I waved gently and waved goodbye to myself who felt inferior because of poor sports when I was young. A confident self stands out from the heavy shell of the past. With this confidence, I will go to a brand-new world.
In Dongcang, remorse and guilt torment the soul.
It's really embarrassing to say it. Since the middle of June last year 165438+ 10, I have basically never run again after brushing my own horse for one and a half years.
Winter is coming, and there are many tests.
First, it's so cold in winter that I'm really too lazy to go out. Second, it is too dark in winter, whether in the morning or at night. I must admit that although I am old, I am still afraid of the dark. Third, the severe smog in winter is not conducive to outdoor activities, which directly disrupts the rhythm of my usual running and rest day. Fourth, I began to learn to write, attend classes every day, and write every day. I really don't have the energy to run anymore.
Put these four reasons together, I gave up directly and was defeated by winter.
For a person who is used to running, the result of not running is very serious.
First, what I lost because of running at that time 10 Jin is slowly gaining back. Well, it's all in vain. Second, I have been unable to shake off the serious self-blame and guilt caused by not running for a long time. Third, not running for a long time directly affects my sleep quality, and I will run a marathon in my dream at night. It's really tiring to dream all night. Sadly, I had three horse racing dreams.
Next winter, I can't be weak and give up running. Even if more than N runners give up running in winter, I just want to challenge myself to be a determined woman.
Now, everything is revived, spring is back to the earth, and I am running again.
This time, I was much more peaceful than when I ran last year. I don't run to face my injured self and cure my inferiority complex. I don't run to realize my dream of running half a horse, and I brag everywhere. I don't run to challenge the whole horse and prove myself.
I run because running is what my body needs to relax after a hard day's work. I run because my body has long been used to the rhythm of running and taking a day off. I run because when I run, my body stretches and I feel comfortable all over. I run because I feel a kind of unspeakable happiness when I run.
I believe that after running this year, there will be different gains and different feelings.
May, spring, summer, autumn and winter, year after year, I can keep running.
~ Gege2017 @ Write an article 44 ~