My college roommate A went home the day before yesterday, and my other roommate B and I happened to be working in the city where Xiaoa lives, so she thought of inviting us to meet.
In fact, before Xiao planned to go home, he clamored to go back to our university dormitory group for an appointment. Not long after, the three roommates bubbled up and said, "No money, no time, no appointment", and solemnly dried the balance in the bank card and WeChat red envelope, proving that there was really no money.
As a matter of fact, I had expected this result when Xiao jumped out of the idea in the group. B and I remained silent in the group as usual.
When I was in college, our dormitory was not so cohesive, and everyone's personality was very different. Officially, it can be described as "different opinions." In my impression, after four years of college, six people in our dormitory got together completely, only when the freshman class had dinner. Although there are no major conflicts and wars within the dormitory, small contradictions are intermittent.
Suffering from the "poison" of college entrance examination, freshmen often have nightmares and return to the examination room. In order to get rid of my troubles, I fight poison with poison. At the beginning of the semester, I will take an inspirational postgraduate entrance examination and continue my regular high school life every day. This move was dissatisfied with other roommates, who all thought that college was for relaxation and play.
At that time, I went to morning reading, self-study and class alone with my schoolbag on my back every day. Everyone in the class can see that I am isolated. The place I am most afraid of going back is the dormitory. There is low pressure everywhere, which makes me breathless.
When I was a sophomore, I couldn't stand it. I began to compromise. I went to find them and get along with others.
But it is not the same kind all the time, and the fatigue of insisting on integration is comparable to the loneliness of being excluded.
I am introverted and not good at dealing with interpersonal relationships. In most cases, in order not to spoil the fun, I agree to do something against my inner needs together. Even if you are unhappy during the trip, you will continue to echo it next time and don't want to make a smog in the dormitory environment.
There is another important reason why I have to wander in maintaining the relationship with my roommates: they don't want to be the head of the dormitory. I suggest drawing lots and taking turns. They don't take it seriously at all. In the first semester, little C was dumped by me. They all hold a negative attitude towards class activities, so class cadres will come to me first if they have something to do, and I am helpless.
Our dormitory is a lone ranger, playing with different people at different times. I am a freshman, and then I have a little B and a little D. In the university organized by dormitory, our dormitory is the most independent dormitory in our class.
When we graduated, our dormitory was not very happy because of the question of whether to wear graduation clothes, although in the end, we still had to hug and let go.
Of course, I believe that there are more or less contradictions in university dormitories, and we also have some good memories in common. Let's have a tan together in military training, make up together, sing K and eat buffet together ... Embarrassed, they are not all the same.
After graduation, people in our dormitory are scattered all over the country, working hard for work and life. At first, we contacted, but later it all faded. We haven't been in touch for a long time. At present, I haven't clearly found my favorite job and determined the object of my life, and I am still moving forward in confusion.
Therefore, when Xiao said that he wanted to be together, there was no wave in my heart. I thought that the absence of three roommates would dispel her thoughts, but she still couldn't stop the enthusiasm for dating.
I really don't want to go in my heart. I am a homebody and tired of all kinds of social parties. I haven't attended any class reunion since school.
Moreover, Xiao did not even ask me if I wanted to go, and directly dragged me into the place where the three people discussed. I really don't want to be with another little B anymore. I finally got rid of it and got involved, which can make up for the embarrassment and speechless at the dating scene.
Besides, what can we discuss together now, including sadness and complaints after graduation, or are we unwilling to recall the memories of college?
As soon as I refused, Xiao called me "inhuman" and "playing big cards", and Xiao B said grumpily on the other end of the voice phone, "I won't go unless I go."
I don't know if they ended up together, but I still feel sad for a long time because of their attitude, and I blame myself for asking myself if I should refuse.
Think about it:
First of all, regarding whether or not to be together, Xiao simply acquiesced that I should be together without my advice. This is her usual style. You have no reason to refuse her arrangement. If you don't agree, you are wrong.
Secondly, what's the point of being together? Is it human nature to agree to be together, then go to the movies, eat and go shopping together, talk about the recent bitterness and sadness, or pretend to be happy after graduation?
Finally, I want to say, if you think I'm not worth paying because I'm not together, then I accept it. Compared with my own remorse, the discomfort of forcing myself to be together is better than the former. I still choose a way to make myself feel comfortable!