Complaining that my brother didn't come to my father's funeral and later found him in a wheelchair, how should I apologize?

My name is Hualin and I come from a small mountain village. My family is poor. My mother died when we were very young, and my father was in poor health, so I couldn't do rough work. I have a brother, too, and we are not much different in age. When we were both in junior high school, my father told us that as you all know, our family can only be used for one child to study, so let's draw lots to decide who will read and who won't. I am puzzled to hear my father say this. I really want to study, but my grades are not very good. At this time, my brother drew one first, told us that he wouldn't read it, and then immediately tore up the other one, which made me behave well.

I was surprised and secretly pleased at the time, but I was also sad that my brother could not continue studying. After that, my brother worked outside, and I read from junior high school to senior high school. When I was a senior in high school, my father died of a sudden illness. I cried and called my brother to tell him the news and told him to come back soon, but my brother couldn't catch the train because of work. When he came back, my father had been buried. I was angry. As soon as my brother came back, I made him look bad. I thought he was really an unfilial son and didn't even want his father to make money.

Later my brother told me that I would stay at home in the future. Don't worry, I will make money at home for your college education. But I don't want to hear what he says. In my heart, he doesn't deserve to be my brother. He's sorry for his father. He's not qualified to take care of me. After graduating from high school, I went to college and left my hometown. When I was in college, my brother called me for money every month, but I hated him very much, so I paid back all the money he made, and I didn't answer his phone calls.

After graduating from college, my girlfriend Xiao Fang and I got married. After all, my brother is my only relative, so I invited him to my wedding. I really regretted the moment I saw him. I feel that he is here to embarrass me, dressed in rags and still hesitating. He also took out 3000 yuan, so I told him to put it down and hurried away so that my classmates could see him. How to look up in front of classmates in the future? After we got married, Xiao Fang and I lived in the city and never went to the country to see my brother again.

One day, my brother suddenly called me and said I had to go back to my hometown to register. I had to go back. Go to the neighbor's house and listen to them say that Lao Lin's youngest son is really heartless. His brother provided education for him. In order to make money for him, he broke his legs and didn't come to see his brother. When I came back, I found my brother in a wheelchair. I asked him what happened. He said that he accidentally broke his leg at work not long ago. No big deal. Why did you mention this? I skipped in a hurry. I feel complicated in my heart.

I silently walked back to my room and opened the drawer at home. I found a piece of yellow paper in it. There is only one word on it. After reading it, I suddenly thought of something. I'll ask what it is. Who knows what my brother said? It's enough to see me happy now. I suddenly realized that my brother gave up the opportunity to study in order to let me study. My brother has done so much for me, but I hate him for so many years. I am really heartless. I ran out and knelt in front of my brother and cried and said to him, big brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, you've done so much for me, and I can never repay you. Since you broke your leg, you will live with me and I will take care of you all my life.