This is a text of the same humanities subject, and now a foreign chapter has been updated.
7. Li Chengyin is a stranger
The moment I saw Xiaofeng jump off the wall, all the heartbreaking memories were God's punishment for me. When I learned that she was caught by Adu, but was carried away by the impact, I thanked the gods again and again for their mercy. But I don't know, since I decided to incarnate Gu Xiaowu, the punishment has never stopped.
I sent her back to the East Palace in the most comfortable carriage. As soon as Xiaofeng settled down, I immediately gave three orders: to choose the best doctor; Send a team of people from Pioneer Camp to Forget Sichuan for water; Send Adu to another place to settle down.
Xiaofeng has been in a coma and has a fever. I stay in front of her bed every night, thinking about getting along with her. Whether it is in the past in the western regions or all kinds of "protection" she received after returning to the East Palace, I only feel like a knife and regret it. I wish she would wake up and let me make it up to her; At the same time, I'm worried that when she wakes up, she will look at me with eyes I hate. But what I fear most is to see her tortured by my ruthless betrayal.
When I came back from Shuiwangchuan, I ordered to study the dose for Tai Hospital and gradually add it to Xiaofeng's soup. I am determined to bury that painful memory forever, at any cost. The long wait has made me, who has always given up hope in ghosts and gods, meditate every day. If I can wake Xiaofeng up, I'm willing to be a vegetarian and worship Buddha all my life, and even call 100 high-ranking monks to pray day and night at the Wanfo Temple.
It was not until that day that she really woke up. I saw her in the dark bed with her eyes open, and even thought she was dreaming. My joy was so short that I was replaced by great fear. If she forgets that the water in Sichuan failed, how painful she will be. I took her back to the East Palace and stayed by my side. Will she hurt herself again? I've never been so nervous. I magnified all her movements and expressions.
Her eyes are round and moist, like a clean stream in the west. My voice was hoarse with fever and asked me who I was.
I felt a sort of surge of relief. God, thank you for giving me a chance to start over.
This time, nothing can stop me from being kind to her, and I won't wronged her again. Although she is wary of me because of her amnesia, she is still a phoenix I first met in Xizhou, but I don't have to pretend to be Gu Xiaowu, wearing a mask and having skeletons in my closet. Now I'm just her husband, Li Chengyin. From now on, we really want to love each other deeply.
I keep all the complicated calculations out of her sight, but I always feel that there are hidden worries in my heart. Although there is no big turmoil on the surface of the East Palace, it is hard to say that it will not hurt her. So I always let people look at her and ask everything, for fear of any accident.
I thought it was enough to have Xiaofeng around, but people are really greedy. Look at the love of your life every day, ignorant. Once love vanished with the forgetting of Sichuan, and my heart was inevitably unwilling. But I told myself, this is the price of getting phoeny back.
Xiaofeng, who is as free and lively as a bird, will not be happy in the Xiaotian yard in the East Palace. I know very well in my heart that although I blocked all her interpersonal contacts and tried to break her wings, I would surrender as long as she made an unintentional threat. It's just that as long as I'm fully prepared and always by her side and take care of her, I can do anything that can make her happy.
I imprisoned Adu, transferred Yong Niang, killed Zhao Sese, and even Pei Zhao stopped guarding the East Palace and was sent to manage the troops stationed in Beijing. In fact, the purpose of squeezing through the crowd and going to Beijing for construction is just to tear down all the Xizhou people's gathering places she used to go to.
However, my thinking is too simple. God has his own justice, how can my betrayal be really regarded as never happened? Thousands of calculations, such a fate, are hard to satisfy.
I went shopping that day and was proud when I went out. I can sleep with her in the future. Who knows, as soon as he came back, he was covered in blood, looking at Xiaofeng lying in bed with a pale face, and the imperial secretary around him was busy in and out.
The doctor called me many times before I heard his reply: the princess was in a state of excitement, her blood burst, and she had been given valium, so it would not be a serious problem for the time being. That's all I heard. My thoughts are wandering. I only have her faint "Gu Xiaowu" in my mind.
Imperial secretary wants to change clothes and freshen up for me. I saw myself in the bronze mirror at a glance. I used to be her blood, and now I am her blood. I waved to everyone. Walking step by step to her bed, I saw her hand still holding the tattered sugar man.
At this time, I had some personal experience of what Xiaofeng said, and blamed myself for how painful it was to bear the blood debt of my loved ones. She can't stand such pain any longer.
The water of forgetting Sichuan has continuously flowed into the East Palace since then.
The bitter green water can make Xiaofeng look innocent again, but it makes me more and more nervous. Taking more times, Xiaofeng's memory recovery becomes easier and easier, and the duration of drug effect becomes more and more unstable. Sometimes an old handkerchief can restore her memory. Every time it's because the mood swings are too big, you should always take care of yourself. Later, I couldn't bear to stop taking medicine several times, but once Xiaofeng woke up, remembering the past would become more crazy and self-mutilation frequently. I had to tie her up and she went on a hunger strike. I forced the soup, and then when she was a little better, I fed her and forgot the Sichuan water. Every time this cycle, she is exhausted, and I can only fall asleep when I am drunk every day. After waking up, either face her scolding or face her forgetting.
Gradually, such samsara has occupied an increasing proportion in life, so I cherish every minute I get along with her innocence. I told her my good memories and began to take shortcuts to narrow the distance. Every time I am careful, I am afraid that I will say something wrong to remind her. At the same time, I urge Thai hospital to study the forgotten river, hoping to find a way once and for all.
Once, I was quiet for more than half a year. Later, in retrospect, it should be the best time in my life. Xiaofeng relies on me and trusts me. We really are a couple. She falls asleep in my arms every day, and I can see her when I wake up every day. Even if I wake up every night, she is always there.
Happiness came to an abrupt end when I heard that she fainted. I was numbly carrying the water of forgetting Sichuan, and my heart was mixed. Unexpectedly, I waited for the news that she was happy At the same time of ecstasy, the worries that followed came back to my heart. Cure too much has long said that the water in Forget Sichuan is particularly cold, and even if they adjust the prescription, they will never give it to Xiaofeng who is pregnant. So, what should I do?
I dug out the book that recorded what had reminded Xiaofeng, and issued a ban overnight. Another man brought Adu and Yong Niang back. At that time, I secretly expected this child to give Xiaofeng hope, and I was afraid that he would become the last straw.
Fortunately, Xiaofeng has been very confused. My defense seemed successful, but I was defeated by a plate of crabs.
That night, after the doctor told me Xiaofeng was fine, I sat all night. Finally, I burned the book and wrote the handwritten note.
Xiaofeng's eyes have told me what to do. Go, I not only shed her blood, but also the blood of my unborn child.
I controlled myself not to appear in front of her, just secretly watching. Looking at Adu's vigil for her, watching Yong Niang help her walk, and watching her gradually bulging belly and hard-to-fade pallor on her face.
Then I went back to painting, painting what I saw her like today, her movements, one by one, night by night.
On the day the baby was born, I was bitten by her arm, but I was very happy. She's better than the king of baiwenhang. She'll be fine. Sure enough, the newborn baby looks exactly like her eyes. It's just that she stopped looking at me. I have been holding the baby for a long time, and the wound on my arm has been bleeding, but my heart has always been My Sweetie's.
I hesitated, trying to go back on my word and leave them behind. But Xiaofeng's simple "I believe" makes it difficult for me to start over. This may be her last trust in me, and I don't want the forgotten water to be erased.
Imperial secretary tells me what they did today every day, and just listening to my mouth can't help but rise. Sometimes I have no choice but to visit them at night. I was always fascinated by it. I didn't know it would be white. Even so, I feel that I have never been so satisfied.
However, happiness is always short-lived At my birthday party that day, the Prime Minister once again mentioned that the East Palace was left unattended. I looked at Xiaofeng's seat, and only drank frequently without answering.
These days, I heard that Xiaofeng wears protective necklaces and makes small clothes for her children every day, all in Xizhou style. It is time. Me, it's time to let go.
I haven't seen her for a long time, so I specially asked the imperial secretary to brighten the lakeside pavilion so that I could really have a good look at her.
As I expected, she was always indifferent and silent, but after seeing her figure disappear, I turned around and spit out the wine in her mouth. Then I couldn't help coughing violently, and the smell of blood in my mouth drowned out the bitterness of forgetting Sichuan water.
Forgetting God's gift does not belong to me.
I've been sending people to talk and listen to her news. I can't help hearing that she may be in danger. I changed my name and surname and went to the west overnight.
Goodbye, she is running hard in the distance, chasing a white horse. After escaping from the siege of pursuers, I rehearsed myself in my mind for countless times and presented a bracelet stolen from Pei Zhao. If I don't practice, I'm afraid my hands will shake and I'll be speechless.
It's been so many years. Although she has wrinkles and tanned skin, her wet eyes never change. She seems to have no doubt about me and adopted all my suggestions. But it is estimated that there is still a knot, and the attitude is alienated from beginning to end. On the contrary, it's Dan. He was a baby when he left, and now he's a teenager who has grown to my shoulders. As brave as riding and shooting, as sincere and enthusiastic. Xiaofeng teaches very well. Dan is curious about my archery. In order to spend more time with him, I deliberately perform some tricks.
I dare not expose my selfishness, otherwise I really want to finish this journey as slowly as possible. But the time for parting has come. Dan and I held an affectionate farewell ceremony and exchanged gifts. Xiaofeng, she gave me a pot of wine. How can I not know what she thinks? I have guessed one or two that she will make a detour and forget about Sichuan. Even so, I will definitely drink the gift she gave me. It's just that every time I drink it, I go to the secret room full of her portrait. Think of her before drinking and see her after drinking.
After working hard all my life, too many doctors finally gave me an ultimatum. I'm tired of drinking all year round, and there are only six months left. They advised me to take good care of my life, and I was relieved. I once wanted to have the best of both worlds, but it turned out to be both sides. I choose power to betray love, and I am responsible for my choice. At this point, Li Chengyin, born for power, can finally die.
I set foot on the road to Xizhou alone, and Pei Zhao needs someone to escort me. I shook my head. I'm just a businessman selling tea, and I want to go to the West again. I know her tribe will spend the winter in a fixed place in winter. I traveled day and night, but when I arrived, they hadn't arrived yet. I waited in the wilderness, ran out of dry food and killed the horse. I don't know how much longer I have to wait. I dare not eat more. I often faint. When I woke up, I ate two bites of meat and slept in the sand.
God have mercy, I am waiting for her.
She still won't say a word to me. I can remember all her expressions and movements, but only her voice, except the last sentence she said to me that year, "Li Chengyin, let me go."
I catch fireflies every night, but I am old and weak, so I catch them slowly, and I finally catch enough.
I'm coughing up blood more and more seriously, for fear that I can't keep my promise.
But fortunately, I still tied her up with a belt that I personally wore and removed countless times. I hugged her again, but why is my hand so disappointing that I can't hold on to her? At present, the world is getting darker and darker, and only a little firefly light leads me to death. Ear, I finally heard her voice again.
Great, she called me Gu Xiaowu again.