That year's book said: "the mighty sorrow leaves the sky and the whip points to the end of the world." Falling red is not heartless, but turning into spring mud is more protective. " I remember that falling red is not heartless to flowers, but protecting flowers in another way. At that time, I probably realized that things are often viewed from different angles, just like the word "saving the country by curve". Many times, when we are frustrated, we can still leave a group of hope in our hearts. As long as the ultimate goal is not achieved, this intermediate process is just one more test. In this way, we can be less disappointed, less desperate, less sad and even less broken.
In recent years, I found that there are many books on the market to interpret the works of our ancestors. I seldom read them before, but after reading one or two, I gradually understood my shyness when reading from the interpretation of scholars. Perhaps because I haven't covered enough content, I still can't understand their thoughts and feelings at that time in some fragments of life or ideals. For example, Gong Zizhen, the protagonist in the book, may have studied history in high school at first, so the representatives of Tang, Song, Yuan, Ming and Qing Dynasties in my memory are Tang Poetry, Song Ci and Ming and Qing novels. Poetry may have lost its luster in the Qing Dynasty. So I probably remember that he was a poet in the Qing Dynasty and wrote a book "Helping the Sea". I used to think that "Miscellaneous Things in the Sea" was a poem, but I didn't know it was a collection of poems, nor did I know under what circumstances the author wrote it, let alone the feelings and ideals behind it. Now that I have read it, I feel that I know less after all.
History, like the rushing Yellow River, has been rolling forward and never stopped for anyone. In later generations, we can still see the works left by our predecessors. In those underdeveloped years, it is enough to show that he is good enough. As the author said, Gong Zizhen's life has its blessings and misfortunes. Fortunately, his talent has been recognized, and people around him also recognize his talent. His political views make politicians afraid to look at him directly, and his talent makes his poems sung. This is a very difficult thing in many cases. After all, in the same society, if you are too different, you will be criticized. First, you are too talented and all beings are too mediocre; Second, you are too different and have done many things that others dare not do, so you joined forces to attack. In his time, in his poems, he achieved "however, when China kept our friendship" and "let all the beautiful women and celebrities". What is sad for his misfortune is probably his sudden sudden death, and a generation of talents have fallen; What's more, his true nature has not been recognized by everyone, and many people have one-sided comments on him.
In fact, who can evaluate who comprehensively and objectively? We are always used to seeing the world by choosing people we like and criticizing the world by choosing people we don't like. In today's view, a fair evaluation is nothing more than from people who really know themselves, or people who have the same view with themselves. If you ask everyone to understand yourself, it is actually a compulsion and your own paranoia.
02
Most people think Gong Zizhen is a poet because of a poem "Ji Hai Za Shi". In the book, the author interprets Gong Zizhen's poems from the perspective of poetry. After careful study, it is found that the fields involved are too wide: politics, economy, culture, frontier, geography, Confucian classics, dialects, water conservancy, agriculture and so on. Looking at his views and remarks, I can't help wondering: how much time has he spent studying the world in his life? He dabbled in a lot, but he studied deeply and claimed to be systematic, so that when he was the top scholar in the imperial examination, he wrote down his thoughts on the whole country with the feelings of Wang Anshi's political reform, which was considered by the courtiers at that time as "furious" and failed to go to high school in one fell swoop. Many of my ideals and ambitions were gradually lost in those years when I was an official.
He decided to travel around the world, so he spontaneously learned dialects from all over the world, looking forward to going there one day, being able to integrate into the local area and see it with his own eyes. Economically, due to the outflow of silver and the depreciation of copper coins, he had his own thoughts on the whole society. He saw the disadvantages and even found a solution, but he didn't have the opportunity to display his talents. On the basis of Confucian classics, he also has his own thoughts on the inheritance of Confucianism. He himself has read the classics of various eras and learned about their contents, including the later study of Buddhist scriptures. He has always been very self-disciplined, using his self-discipline to correct some classic mistakes and let the culture pass on better.
Looking at the characters of the same period in the book, those names that once passed by in history books, Chinese books and geography books, I can't help feeling that there were really many talents in that era. They all appear in various fields, and only by doing their best in life can they go down in history. It is undeniable that there will be frustrated people in every era. For example, Gong Zizhen herself.
I was forced to resign, give up what I have been pursuing, make cloth clothes and return to my hometown. Even if you have a court in your heart, you should cut yourself some slack and be an idle person. However, people with ideals in their hearts cannot be idle people. That's why they have to break the precepts and rewrite poems, and that's why we have the poems we see today. As the book says: "I was abandoned by fate and the world, but I still insist on talking, and I still hold love and kindness to the world." "A person is hidden is into, is unknown or reputation, can completely put down? If you are famous, talk about it; If you have never been tainted with fame, how can you talk about letting go? " It is conceivable that many nights, Gong Zizhen asked herself again and again, saying that I would not give up, and I would persist. I just changed my way, but I lamented again and again in my heart, and I was also afraid that my life would become like this. I want to convince myself to let go, but I'm afraid I can't let go. What's the difference between myself and such a layman?
In the end, he found a way that "one can completely establish Taoism outside the political flow, and when he can't do anything about the political flow, he can let Taoism correct the times." "There are 3,000 robberies in the sky and 500 years on the ground." Isn't it what Buddhists say that we are robbing? Isn't a person's life also a practice?
03
The book said: "People in the era of peace may not understand a person's strength. Individuals really shouldn't sell themselves short. He has the ability to reverse Gan Kun. " I guess when Gong Zizhen realized this, she was facing a teacher in the countryside. He never thought that his thoughts would come to our world beyond time and space, did he?
Nothing you want to accomplish in the world will be too easy, but won't you do the difficult things? Perhaps everyone has a voice that never gives up, but compared with hardships, many people are defeated. In fact, if you really want to finish it, don't think too much, just work hard. I remember when I was in junior high school geography. At that time, the teacher told us how serious the land desertification was in China. The idea that came to mind at that time was to plant trees, let the roots absorb water and keep the water under them. When the trees grow up, they can stop the wind and sand. When there are enough trees, they will not be abandoned. Before I could express my thoughts, the teacher interrupted my train of thought and said that it was impossible to plant trees in the desert. Later, he told us how difficult it was. However, the data in recent years have come out, and we also see that the desertification area in China is decreasing. Even photos taken from space show that the once golden area is gradually replaced by green. Have the persistence of the tree planter in those days. I guess he didn't expect to succeed when he did it. He just tried his best to do it. As a result, he slowly persisted and got what he wanted.
Every era has something that makes us feel unfair. We all know this is unfair, but many people know this, but they ignore it and don't want to change it. Because they often say, "I have no ability or power. These things should be left to those who have the ability and power to do. " I like a sentence in the book very much: "Unconditional cloth will do more and better in meritorious service than conditional princes." What I insist on is not to ignore my own ability, not to ignore my own ability. If you insist in your heart, please continue to insist. As long as your heart remains the same, everything in the universe will repay you in its way.
There is more than one choice in life. It is important to find the one that suits you. Just like Gong Zizhen's time, the social atmosphere was that learning is excellent and being an official, but there are also many "apes and cranes" who pursue their own literary virtues, choose to live in seclusion, preach and teach, and strive to maintain their knowledge and talent. This is not a source. They turned people's lives into armies, and their origins were controlled by themselves. When Gong Zizhen felt that his ambition was hard to be rewarded and his ambition could not be extended, he just gave his source to others. He needs people who know him politically and support him at the same time. Only in the atmosphere at that time, officials were trying to be famous, but they didn't want to do anything. This is contrary to his pursuit in the big environment. It is conceivable that the result is almost a dream come true.
Throughout the whole universe and history, we are just small grains of sand. Don't say that a talent like Gong Zizhen was depressed just after he got out of officialdom. How do ordinary people open up? The book also writes that in the years when Gong Zizhen was an official, people with gray hair grew old with a flick of a finger, and there were fewer friends at that time. Yes, time has been washing away, we keep meeting and leaving. So people will always think of their former people at some moment, but you can't remember his face.
When we encounter many choices in life, most of us are in a dilemma, because no one knows what will happen after choosing one, and we can't know in advance whether choosing another will be better. When we don't choose what we originally thought, how many people can break it and break with the past completely?
Well, history is hard to enter and hard to retreat. How many people walked out of Chang 'an in a rage? We're actually talking about all beings. All beings suffer, and you are not the only one. Almost all the time, we are making choices. There are many people in this world who keep choosing and regretting. How many people can stop loss in time when they realize that they have made a mistake? Many dark moments in life, how did you come here?
Life is a kind of practice, what is it? Probably a heart that will not be humiliated, accompanying you to see the rapid development of short life for decades. Each of us has spent many years pursuing what we like, but letting go is only a moment. Just like a fallen flower, it is not to lose feelings for branches and leaves, but to protect it in another way. Many dark moments in life require you to let go of your obsession. When you understand that there is more than one way to achieve your goal, you won't be entangled in "this road is blocked, where is the road?" Because you'll find another way and start over.