"Like a person is too tired, give up." This is the voice in your heart, and it is what you say to yourself. Secret love takes courage, pays a lot, but the return is pitiful. Even he doesn't know what you did. Although unrequited love is a person's carnival, it can last for several years, and one day it will come to an end.
I don't know why you are not together, but if you have the chance, try to express yourself. If there is no chance, it is time to let go. So this dream is to protect you, don't pay in vain, bury the past, and then you can start your new life.