What's it like to drink alone in a quiet corner of the city at night?

I really like drinking alone. I can drink a lot. I like to drink beer, but I can't drink urgent wine. I have two confidants who can drink with me, but I can't stand drinking friends often, so I often drink alone at home. I used to drink alone because I felt uncomfortable, experienced all kinds of disappointments and setbacks, and had nowhere to vent. I don't want to tell my family, I'm afraid my family will worry, and I don't want to tell my friends. So whenever I have the chance to be alone, I will order some takeout, buy a case of beer, drink some wine and vent. I often cry when I drink, and I am drunk every time. Later, my mood gradually improved and things went smoothly, but I still liked myself.