Reporter/Zheng Lin
Editor/Liu Jianhua
The hour hand stopped at 14: 28 and remained motionless for ten years.
The earthquake in 2008 claimed the lives of le87 150 people and injured more than 370,000 people. That is not only a catastrophe in the disaster area, but also a historical pain of the country and the nation.
The wounds of the body have healed, but the heart is often torn again. The Wenchuan earthquake ten years ago opened the first year of psychological rescue. Today, ten years later, a reporter (ID:bqshenyidu) went deep into several disaster areas in Sichuan for three months and completed a series of field investigations on the psychological and spiritual rehabilitation of the victims.
People can't erase this memory, but they can try to heal the pain.
? Beichuan middle school post-earthquake site
Tian, a junior, never waited for her sister's call.
Yu Xia, a freshman, hugged her good friend for the last time.
Li Yiling, a senior in high school, is full of green water bottles from fellow villagers.
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On that day, on May 12, 2008, an earthquake occurred in Renjiaping Beichuan Middle School, two five-story teaching buildings collapsed, and 1000 students were killed.
Classmates, friends, family and all aspects of life have left, and Tian's generation of Beichuan people has become incomplete. Someone lamented: "In Beichuan, there are very few dolls my age."
Nowhere to go.
Recalling the day 10 years ago, Tian couldn't stop crying, and wet paper towels were thrown on the desk, forming a "hill".
On the afternoon of May 12, 2008, the political lesson didn't last long, and it began to shake. Both the students and the teacher were shocked and didn't know what had happened.
At that time, Beichuan Middle School was building a playground, and there were often large-scale mechanical operations. At the beginning of the earthquake, Tian thought it was the noise made by machines passing through the teaching building.
When the ceiling fell, someone finally said "earthquake" in H: N field and they were told to hide under the table. The earth seemed to be cut open and the teaching building began to sink. The first floor sank underground, and the second floor became the first floor. Some students couldn't stand it and jumped out of the window.
"Huanhuan, come in quickly," Li Yiling, from Class 6, Grade 3, hid under the table and hugged her deskmate who stayed in her seat. Li Yiling didn't feel particularly scared, more like dreaming, "like on a seesaw, swinging with the classroom floor."
With the sinking of the teaching building, the position of the fourth floor where Class 6 of Grade Three is located is a little lower. Li Yiling and her classmates bypassed the stairs that had not been covered for a long time, ran to the balcony on the third floor, and then went down, and found that there was no way to go.
The second floor where Tian's class was located completely collapsed. She didn't run out and was crushed under the rubble. She can feel that there are other students nearby. Everyone can hear each other across the desk. "At that time, there were three students who were close to me."
These teenagers encouraged each other to survive under the ruins. However, some people broke down and kept shouting "help me, help me".
? Earthquake troops search and rescue in Beichuan Middle School.
Children under the ruins
Li Yiling jumped directly from the third floor. Looking back after landing, it was seven or eight meters high, and then I felt a little scared.
The dust all over the sky blurred Li Yiling's vision, and she couldn't tell the difference between southeast and northwest. She saw a boy dressed in military green in front of her. She grabbed the boy in the corner and started to run outside, but the boy didn't leave her.
When she arrived at the playground, Li Yiling looked up at the opposite side, and her sight suddenly became much more transparent than before. The mountain that was originally blocked by the teaching building now appeared in front of her eyes, and Li Yiling felt "hitched" in her heart.
Beichuan Middle School, founded in 1944, is the only high school in Beichuan Qiang Autonomous County. Before the earthquake, there were 2,883 students, covering 3 townships/0/7 townships in Beichuan Qiang Autonomous County. May 12, which happens to be Monday. Most students left their families and went back to school the day before. Tian also had a pleasant weekend. She and her sister bought a cake to celebrate her mother's birthday in advance.
The parents of the nearby village rushed to school, dumbfounded, and the five-story teaching building collapsed. Children shout inside, adults shout outside.
Beichuan Middle School has become one of the worst-hit places in Beichuan. According to incomplete statistics, 1000 students were killed here. Among the 53 students in Tian Ban, more than 20 were killed.
Yu Xia, a senior one in Beichuan Middle School, is one of the classes with the least casualties, with more than 60 students and more than lái50 students. And his brother's class, the whole class, survived ten. There is another class in Senior One, and all the students were killed except one who asked for leave. Yu Xia recalled that in the first year of high school, six or seven hundred people finally survived more than two hundred.
"Like me, I was only slightly injured in the earthquake. I am really lucky. " Yu Xia said, "Look at Beichuan, there are very few dolls my age."
Last Embrace
Less than a week before the Spring Festival of 20 18, the annual flavor of Beichuan New County is getting stronger and stronger, and workers are hanging dēng cages on street lamps on both sides of the road.
When I met Yu Xia, she had just finished her work in Chengdu and returned to Beichuan. After the earthquake, my parents opened a supermarket in A Le in the county. The year is approaching, and business is very busy. On several occasions, Yu Xia had to stop talking and help customers choose goods and collect money.
Yu Xia is an optimistic girl. When she recalled the disaster, she laughed more than other students. "In retrospect, it was all fate or luck."
Her voice choked only when she talked about her dead friend. "When everyone is alone with others, the state is different. This is a pain that others can't see. "
Yu Xia has a very good friend. They have been inseparable since primary school. "When I was a child, we wrote letters, and there were many letters written by her at home."
Before the earthquake, my good friend won the second prize in the school composition competition and gave dozens of dollars. She and Yu Xia agreed to buy something delicious to celebrate sometime this week.
At noon on May 12, Yu Xia met her in the corridor while cleaning, and they also hugged each other. A few hours later, the earthquake came, and Yu Xia's good friend never appeared again.
Sometimes, my friend's mother meets Yu Xia in the street, and she is still in tears. "We all know these pains, but we can't comfort them. Only she can relax herself or receive some psychological counseling. "
No students were killed in Class 6, Grade 3. However, some of Li Yiling's young friends never came out. One of the girls, she is happy to share with Li Yiling which boy is handsome in school or barber shop. Recalling these, Li Yiling had a rare smile on his face. "On one occasion, the two of us spent the whole morning in front of the barber shop. I didn't expect any boy to be so handsome."
Li Yiling still remembers a green water bottle. The day before the earthquake, I met a girl from the same village in the dormitory building. At that time, she was playing hot shuǐ, and everyone called her "Zhao Nv". She is a senior one student in Beichuan Middle School, and Li Yiling chatted with her. The last time for two people, it was set in the boiling water room. Ten years later, Li Yiling can't remember what she talked about or what Zhao Nvshi was wearing. Only she has the bright color of the green water bottle in her heart.
Tian has never waited for her sister's call. During the earthquake, my sister Tian was herding sheep on the mountain, and later she was killed. Tian was rescued from the ruins and sent to the hospital, where she met the villagers in the neighboring village and learned about the situation at home.
My sister is ill, so she can't go on studying. She stayed at home and helped her parents. She loves the field very much. Every time she goes home, her sister is responsible for cooking and washing clothes. The school dormitory is equipped with a public telephone, and the two sisters basically call and chat every night to talk about each other's worries.
On May 1 1, when Tian left home for school, she specifically told her sister to call her at night, and her sister joked that she would not call. As a result, she really didn't get a call from her sister that night.
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sisters
The car passes through Tangjiashan Tunnel and Maanshan Tunnel. The mountain road is steep, with a canyon on one side and a cliff on the other. Traces of falling rocks can be seen on the road not far away. Two or three years ago, it was still a dirt road. Along this dirt road, the woman named Zhao mentioned went to school and went home countless times.
In Taibai Village, Xiaoba Township, 70 kilometers away from Beichuan County, I met Zhao's parents: Zhao Chunzhong, 55, and Zhao Chunzhong, 53. Zhao is their second daughter.
On Saturday, my 8-year-old daughter and her father returned to the mountains. She is wearing a meatball head, which is the age to change her teeth. When people asked her where her two front teeth had gone, she quickly covered her mouth and showed a shy expression. She will also be asked by René why her father named a gè boy, and the younger daughter herself can't explain it clearly.
After the earthquake, Zhao Nvshi was killed, and her mother Chen Guofang has been thinking about it. Finally, she had to do manual work to distract her. She made dozens of pairs of insoles, and now many of them are still at home. "I haven't thought about it for a day."
Zhao's dream is to study abroad. On the mountain, Chen Guofang is planting medicinal materials. Woman Zhao Wendao:
"I want to study abroad in the future, mom, can you afford it?"
"I can afford it. When you study abroad, these can already be sold. " Chen Guofang looked at more than two hundred acres of medicinal materials on the mountain.
Saving enough money to go abroad has become the biggest worry for the couple. Two people get up early and get greedy for the dark, and drive to collect mountain products to do business.
Hearing talking about her sister whom she had never met before, the youngest daughter took out the book that Zhao Nvshi had read from the room. She can't understand, but she knows that a sister has passed away. The little guy also likes to study, which makes Chen Guofang have mixed feelings. "If she wants to do well in the exam like the second sister, then we must give her up."
The morning in the mountains is much colder than that in Gulei town. Worried that the sea would catch cold, she added a vest to her little daughter. A few years ago, due to poor health, my little daughter often caught a cold and had a high fever. She goes to Mianyang more than a dozen times a year and spends 30,000 to 40,000 yuan. "Pressure, I borrow money everywhere. Now I am worried that she is sick and spends money, and then I am worried that she will study. "
At present, the family's life depends entirely on Chen Jiafang feeding pigs to earn some money. The price of pigs is not good these two years. "We are very worried now. We are in our fifties and need you to work. "
It is a responsibility to the children in front of us, leaving only unrealistic ideas for Zhao. Ten nián, Chen Guofang insisted on not changing his phone number and lost his mobile phone. A dìng wants to reissue the number, and she is worried that her daughter may come back to find her one day. "Not on TV? What if she is still here? "
Aftershock in my heart
For the surviving Beichuan children, even a slight shaking will bring them back to their fears ten years ago.
The Yushu earthquake and Ya 'an earthquake after 2008 were felt in Chengdu. Yu Xia works in an office on a high floor. A slight shake makes her nervous and scared. Many friends will post in the circle of friends, saying that there is another earthquake. She witnessed the unspeakable taste on the screen. "Some people may say, why are you so afraid of death or something, but for those of us who have experienced 5. 12, we are very afraid."
"I'd rather believe it." Being in the earthquake zone, Beichuan people are no strangers to earthquakes. When I was a child, I was washing my feet. Xia Yu saw the basin shaking a little, and he didn't know it was an earthquake until the next day. Until that day 10 years ago, people thought it was an ordinary "small fight", but they didn't want it to be a landslide.
"10 years, is the shadow of the earthquake still there?" I asked Li Yiling.
"Of course, as long as it flashes, I feel particularly nervous."
Sometimes the feet of the people next to you will tremble. Li Yiling's first reaction was whether there was an earthquake. She couldn't help but want to go outside. There is an instinctive fear of tall buildings. When Li Yiling is in Chengdu, she will feel scared when she sees tall buildings. Naturally, she thinks that there is nowhere to hide when the earthquake comes.
In a college English class, a roller passed by the school, causing the classroom to vibrate. Li Yiling, sitting in the back row, suddenly stood up and shouted "Earthquake, earthquake", and then began to run outside. Finally, her classmates gave her a hand.
Tian, who was rescued after being trapped for 26 hours, took a long time to recover his memory of the earthquake. Tian had many dreams after he fell into a coma under the ruins of Zhai. In a dream, Tian went to physical education class, and the teacher asked her students to pass various competitions. She couldn't get through the checkpoint. "It took a long time to get through."
Another dream under the ruins is that before the earthquake, she had run out of the teaching building and evacuated to a safe place, but suddenly she wanted to go to the toilet and ran back to the teaching building, and then she was pinned down by the collapsed ruins.
For a long time after the earthquake, these dreams were mistaken for reality by her. "After I was rescued, my family and reporters asked me at that time. I told them, but this is not the case. " At the class reunion a year later, the students talked about the situation under the ruins, and Tian's memory was completely restored.
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Goodbye Beichuan
In Tian's home, things about her sister were not deliberately hidden, but kept in a fixed place. Sometimes, Tian will go to see it. "It's not sad now, it's more a feeling of missing."
She seldom hides under the covers and cries as before. Memories of her sister only appear at special moments.
20 17, 1 1, 10, Tian got the certificate, and the wedding is being prepared. My husband is also a student in Beichuan Middle School. Their love ran for five years and finally turned out to be a positive result. When her husband became the new pillar of Tian, she asked him if he cared about the scar he left in the earthquake. The husband's firm answer, "I don't care", became the greatest comfort.
Yu Xia began to think about the meaning of life. She decided to leave Beichuan and go to a bigger and farther world. "Otherwise, if you die one day and haven't left Beichuan County, isn't it a loss?"
After the earthquake, people from all over the world flocked to Beichuan, including Chinese and foreign journalists. Yu Xia met so many different people for the first time. Yu Xia's eyes were suddenly enlightened and she wanted to go to Beijing at first. In the first year of college entrance examination, she was admitted to a school in Beijing. However, because his father suspected that the school was not good, Yu Xia went back to school for another year and was admitted to a university in Chengdu.
Li Yiling chose to come back. Affected by the earthquake, she chose nursing as her major in university. After graduation, she returned to work in the hospital in Beichuan.
I can't forget the memory of Beichuan Middle School, but it's also hard to forget.
10 years, Li Yiling was the only one who went to Old Beichuan Middle School twice. "Two years and three months later, I went back to middle school for the first time. At that time, the memorial hall had not been built. I think of many friends yǒu lying here, with a particularly sour nose and a particularly sad heart. " Qq space in Li Yiling preserved "beautiful photos" of the old Beichuan Middle School and the county seat before the earthquake.
On April 4th, 20 18, the car on the way home passed by Beichuan Middle School. Li Yiling didn't look out of the window. Over the years, every time she passed by, she deliberately turned to look at other places.
After the earthquake, the ruins of the old Beichuan Middle School were built into an earthquake memorial hall. During the Qingming Festival, the soil slope covering the ruins of school buildings was covered with grass, and white paper flowers were planted in the low Woods on both sides. In the cement pool for commemoration, there are burnt incense sticks and paper money.
Xinbeichuan Middle School was rebuilt in Yongchang Town, 30 kilometers away. The stone tablet at the school gate reads the eight-character school motto of "patriotism, gratitude, simplicity and diligence".
20 18, 15 One afternoon in April, students from all over Beichuan returned to campus, dragging suitcases, pushing mountain bikes and carrying guitars. They hung their badges on their chests, put their campus cards on the machine at the school gate, and sighed: A new week of campus life has begun.
10 years ago that Sunday, Tian, and returned to school from home. The next day, the earthquake came.
(Yu Xia is a pseudonym in the text)
What does it mean to dream of an earthquake?
Lead: What does it mean to dream of an earthquake and what does it portend? It is a normal physiological and psychological phenomenon for human beings to daydream during the day and dream at night. In The Duke of Zhou, is it a good omen or a bad omen to dream of an earthquake? The following is what I prepared for you, I hope it will help you! 1. If you dream of an earthquake or typhoon on TV or in pictures, it means that your job will change or people will be transferred to other places to work. 2. Dreaming that you are trapped in the soil, if your upper body is on the ground, it indicates that you are about to usher in your own early days. 3, dreaming of subsidence, ominous, the house is not peaceful. 4, dreaming of an earthquake, on the one hand, it may be that the pressure of work and life is too great and the inner anxiety is excessive; On the other hand, it may indicate that one's health is declining, that there are hidden dangers of serious illness, or that one's relatives will encounter unexpected changes. Long-term dreaming of watching the earthquake indicates that the career or business will improve. Ordinary people dream of earthquakes, which means that they have found the center of gravity of life and can carry out their lives firmly and fearlessly. 6. Dreaming of an earthquake is an ominous sign, indicating that there is something wrong with your body. Although there seems to be nothing serious at present, I still need to have a health check-up. 7. Dreaming of an earthquake means that you have left behind your previous bad luck, found your own goal and direction, and made a new start. The earthquake that scholars and experts dream of will be world-famous for its academic achievements. 8. Dreaming of an earthquake cloud shows that you are very concerned about this matter. Dān had an earthquake in his heart, thinking about it every day and dreaming at night. 9. Dreaming that the school building collapsed in the earthquake indicates that there is a shadow mismatch in health. Pay special attention to acute diseases.