1, missing;
My father suffered from illness in front of him. You witnessed the process with your own eyes, and you felt very painful, even dreaming.
It is also "vivid" and the pain is still there.
3. Seeing relatives struggling with gastric cancer will leave some shadows, and women are usually more susceptible than men.
I feel vulnerable and helpless.
4. Guilt and remorse. Perhaps because of financial problems, I may not have given my father the best medical care.
I felt guilty when I died, and I often blamed myself (at least I thought I could buy more time), thinking about it day and night.
Dream on.
It used to be a kind of deception, but now the subconscious seeks the liberation of the soul.
Best wishes.