The ice toad may symbolize the image of Prince Charming. You want your image or others to think of you like an ice toad, so you are trying to discover and change yourself. As a result, it didn't work the first time. You thought it was just a frog, and this image has become a thing of the past. Later, or recently, you felt this way, but you felt lonely and cold.
My imagination can only do this. Try this for yourself: What do you think of the ice toad? What do you admire about it? What are the similarities and differences between your experience and this?