Number one: I'm dead. First of all, there is a problem. Have you talked to anyone about similar problems in your recent life? Or, among friends and family, and people around you have left? If not, it is also a good choice to go to the hospital for physical examination.
The second point: fiance. This clearly shows that you have such a person in your heart. A little handsome' This should be your first impression of him; Public face' this may indicate that he is just an ordinary person, not a big boss or a senior leader; Look familiar' means that he should be your friend or someone around you; It's quite strange. Everyone knows that a person is hesitant and afraid of strange things, but your hesitation and fear should be based on this emotional uncertainty (not sure whether you really like him or whether you will like yourself? In other words, this strangeness should be your excuse to escape this feeling.
As for the latter, it's just your own fantasy.