Because you are still asexual, you are afraid that your existing masturbation behavior will affect your future sex life, and you are afraid that you can't satisfy each other. This is also a symbolic meaning that you want to press back but you can't press it down.
Finally, the theory of harmless masturbation has been advocated for many years, but I think this statement is problematic. Experts explain that masturbation is harmless from a physiological point of view, but masturbation itself is a kind of comfort behavior with psychological needs greater than physiology.
Therefore, he is not harmless. Freud repeatedly stressed that it is very harmful to personality, and this sexual attitude will affect all aspects of love, work and life after dependence. I like to take shortcuts in everything, but I have no fighting spirit.
I often fantasize that great achievements can be achieved without struggle and pain.
So set yourself a short-term goal and a long-term goal, and either party can do it.
Get out of this swamp