Suicide in the dream represents a kind of liberation, an escape from reality. People who are stressed often dream of suicide if they have a negative attitude.
Dreaming of someone committing suicide means that your negative emotions are on the rise now. This situation is ok, pay attention to relieve the pressure. If you dream that you committed suicide, you should pay attention.
Analysis of dreams:
The police and the masses are watching, which represents justice and hopes to attract others' attention.
By steaming, you steamed yourself into a mass of cooked meat, which means sacrifice and dedication, because your later description shows that meat is delicious.
You're afraid because, you think, you might give and sacrifice like this.
Maybe in the job search, there are many requirements that make you feel too much. I hope someone can be fair (the police and the masses). At the same time, you feel like a hooligan, and you find that you have to make some sacrifices.