Don't wipe your ass: it means that something is not finished in reality. According to the description in the later dream, it may be related to "dealing with money". I feel that this matter is my own burden, and I feel that this matter is somewhat unclean.
Examination: refers to consideration and recognition.
2. reasons
As you describe yourself, your current situation and mood. You care too much about face and other people's evaluation, but whether you can do or finish what you are doing now, whether you can solve the problem of "money" and whether you can get the respect of company leaders and colleagues.