Let me explain your dream to you from a psychological point of view.
Generally speaking, dreams reflect some depressed emotions and potential thoughts in daily life. We can analyze it like this. In reality, you really want to do one thing best, but you always feel overwhelmed or unable to play freely. This feeling sometimes makes you very depressed and annoyed.
So this is a lost dream.
Something real made you lose it and then you had this dream.
Don't worry, if you want to get rid of these losses, you need to correctly understand the things and people around you, accept the reality, find the key points, face, overcome and relax yourself.
Have fun!