The aura of the mind is dark, so you can see it. You must have a lot of yin, so pay attention. It is best to read the Amitabha Sutra and think about bliss, thinking that Amitabha will always shine and all living things around will melt away. When you have nothing to do, read the six-character Buddhist name "Amitabha in the South" for a long time, and your dream will be bright.
Buddhism is vast, and people who have no difficulties are taught methods. No one can do it without acting in accordance with the law. If you drown yourself, if you save someone who wants to drown, he doesn't want to live and can't be saved.